2019: Hola chicos/Hello boys. This page is now a series of queer-related articles specifically for queer guys, although the article you presumably came here to read — “I woke up with a dick in my mouth” — is still here at the top, after this paragraph. On pink barrio you will read no revisionist history “LGBT” shit here because lesbians did not lead the Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement as “LGBT” implies. Gay guys led the Movement along with trans individuals and Drag Queens. “LGBT” does not represent me, and how many more fucking letters? (Related: The official acronym is now: LGBTQQICAPF2K+). If that isn’t the most ridiculous looking thing I’ve seen in some time. I thought with “Gay Assimilation” everyone wanted to be clones of the straights. Ugh. The straights don’t have any silly acronyms.
I woke up with a dick in my mouth (immediately below these links)
The Lies about Pussy. The Great Pussy Scandal.
Brett Chuckerman: Married to his boyfriend but says he’s not gay
Are most bi guys bi?
The Closeted Queer So-Called “Community” (2017 forward)
Do gay male couples exist?
“This New City sucks!” (San Francisco)
“Assimilated” really means back in the closet (US)
It’s essentially back in the closet
This “straight” guy was all hot for mi amigo
We don’t smell or have shit in our hair
The Naked Guys Are Back (San Francisco’s Castro). Aren’t You Excited?
Why would a closet case move to a gay area?
Preface to “I woke up with a dick in my mouth:”
Things have really changed around here in San Francisco’s Castro (the former Gay Mecca) since I wrote this article some years ago. (Related: San Francisco is unrecognisable to former residents who come back to visit). Is anyone talking about waking up with a dick in their mouth anywhere in The Castro these days? No, we never hear that anymore, although I’m pretty much keeping this article in its original dated form. We never hear “I woke up with a dick in my mouth” in conservative and sanitised San Francisco. This City has done a 180 with tech gentrification. This City is now a Baby Factory. If Harvey Milk were alive and came back to visit The Castro, he would likely say, “What the fuck have you done to it gay guys? Why did you allow this to happen, and even encourage it? Why did you become conservatives why calling yourselves Democrats?” Yes, The Castro has been so sanitised, Disneyfied and stripped of what it once was with the help of the now-conservative GLBTQ so-called “community” — what I mean by that is that there’s no sense or feel of “community” here now at all — along with the conservative Castro merchants, most of whom deserve to go out of business frankly. It’s appalling what they’ve done. They have ruined The Castro. The Castro is no longer even a museum piece of its former self. They can saturate The Castro with Rainbow Flags but that doesn’t make it a gay area.
Mi amigo/My friend changed gyms for a couple of reasons: He was going to what was known as the gay gym and he left there because of a large fee hike and because it was a very unfriendly/snooty gym and becoming more and more “straight.” And the gay guys there were trying to be more and more heteronormative and acting like tough-guy jocks. Obnoxious. His new gym has some Queer guys in it but as he tells me, “Nobody looks at anybody. They’re all phone tech zombies. And the guys I always thought were gay and came down here from the gay gym I’ve heard some of them talking about getting married to a female trying to pretend to be “straight” to fit in with the invading “straights” population. Pretty fucked up. One of the reasons for gay areas in major cities was to give gay guys a safe place where they wouldn’t need to feel like this and could be open and honest about who they are as a Queer person. But that becomes less and less the case when the area becomes more and more “straight” with some anti-gay “straights” moving in (Related: His shirt said, “Fuck you, homo.” (San Francisco’s Castro)). Mi amigo is hearing more and more of that, guys he’s always thought were gay talking about marrying a female. Script writers couldn’t make this shit up! That story has repeated itself thousands of times over generations with gay guys marrying females, squeezing out babies and then comes the: “Honey, I’m gay and always have been. I’ve been lying all this time about my sexuality. I’m moving in with my new boyfriend. Meet you in court over the house and kids” with many people’s lives ruined. Mi amigo is also seeing some guys he thought were gay all these years making out with females on Market Street and in the gym, again, trying to be heteronormative to be like the obnoxious in-your-face him-tall/her-short, mandatory hand-holding breeders
who are taking over who have taken over. As of this writing, he’s seeing less of that from the past because he thinks the gym has lost about 3/4 of their membership as people have stopped taking care of themselves and stopped going to the gym. Here in the US, “fat and lazy” is in, including here in San Francisco. The gym thing was just a long time fad here. It would appear that many gay guys are going back in the closet even in San Francisco and elsewhere, running from the word “gay” and calling themselves “WM” (white male) and at some point the now-dead Gay Rights’ Movement will have to start all over again. Sad really.
Now for the article you came here for: Have you ever woken up with a dick in your mouth? I can’t say that I have. I think it would be rather startling, don’t you? I mean you wake up—or you’re trying to—and in this fog of waking up you slowly realise that you have—what feels like—something thick and with human skin in your mouth and your tongue is having trouble moving about and you don’t want to bite down because you don’t know what’s in your mouth.
I was talking with mi amigo yesterday and over the years one of the most common things (lies?) he’s heard Queer guys say at his gym has been the proverbial, “I woke up with a dick in my mouth.” (Yeah, sure you did, muchacho).
The “dick in the mouth” story is told after Queer boys in San Francisco have been to one of their many non-stop parties (parTying is their occupation and addiction) where they get drunk and don’t remember any of it. Well what’s the point of that? But that’s what much of the gay populace has become, which is why I no longer relate to much of the so-called “gay community” at all. (Well, there’s really no “community” or “community” feel at all anymore). The so-called “gay community” has become rather pathetic. Other than parTying, getting drunk and being bent over squinting at the biggest mind controlling device there is (also known as the smartphone 24/7 with their intense addiction to that, they don’t seem to have much of a life at all. As another Queer blogger I know says: It’s rather pathetic what my fellow Queers have become. Yes it is. Mi amigo has heard this “dick in the mouth” story countless times. He heard it again last weekend at his gym, which is why I’m writing about it. He told me he went into the gym and looked around and every guy he saw in there had his head down fucking with their mind-controlling device/stupidphones. Everyone of them. Clearly, they were working out their thumbs, but not much else. Then he went over to another part of the gym (a few guys were over there and not glued to their phone) and he overheard this guy tell another guy that his dick was in the other guy’s mouth when he woke up and the other guy’s dick was in his mouth. Does anybody believe that? I suppose it’s possible, but really! Then the guy proceeded to tell the guy he was telling the story to/lying to about how drunk he got and they both let out this loud, obnoxious laugh as if getting drunk and waking up with a dick in your mouth—and supposedly not remembering any of it—was the funniest thing they had ever heard. Even though as I said, this “dick in the mouth” story has been repeated probably thousands of times by guys in this same gym. These are supposed adults I’m talking about, not adolescents. I thought all that bragging about getting drunk and not remembering any of it ended after the teenage years, no?
A personal note to “dick in the mouth” guys: Just like internet trolls, you need new material desperately, muchachos. That dick in the mouth story has more than run its course. It’s predictable and at this point unbelievable, because it supposedly happens too often. So let me see …Oh I know, you could say that you woke up with the other guy’s fist up your ass and your fist up his ass. How’s that? You could replace your dick in the mouth story with that story. That happens all the time too, doesn’t it?! At least that would add variety to your stale and monotonous, “I woke up with…” repertoire. So give that a try.
Update here in 2019: We don’t hear any of that around here anymore so even though it’s written in present tense, it’s really past tense. In fact, the only sexual talk that is heard around here anymore is about breeder sex. Such as how some jock bro — including some guy mi amigo always thought was gay from the “gay gym” — is trying to get his girl or his wife pregnant. Mi amigo hears that breeder shit at his new gym. Amazing how a place can change so drastically from what it used to be.
Then there’s pussy. The way some heteronormative guys are going on about and marketing pussy, you would think that pussy is some new creation, some new invention like the latest and greatest phone that everyone must have. The Castro has become a Breeder Mecca, no longer a Gay Mecca.
The Lies about Pussy. The Great Pussy Scandal.
Pussy must not be all that hot. In straight sex videos that I and the people I’ve talked with have watched — whether it be home videos or professionally produced ones, the home videos are better (more real) but in all but one video that I’ve seen it took the guy forever and a day to cum. Anyone else ever noticed that? His dick must be completely raw before he cums. It took him up to the entire length of the video which was over 45 minutes. At the end, after he pulled out and started jacking off so he wouldn’t supposedly get her pregnant — even though there’s a chance she could get pregnant from his pre-cum — it still took him up to a couple of minutes to cum. Which begs the question: Is vagina really all that hot? If it were, guys would be cumming within a very short time. It wouldn’t take them up to nearly an hour, just as it doesn’t take a guy up to an hour to cum when he jacks off. When I talked with mi amigo/my friend about this (and he had sex with females before he came out of the closet) the first thing he said was, “She must have been very loose from being over-fucked. I’ve never had a tight pussy myself even, though I only had 2-3.” He continued, “As you know, pussy is over-marketed as part of society’s heteronormative Breeder/Straight Agenda, and most of it is lies. You could call it “The Lies about Pussy.”
And I would add that clearly the female anatomy was poorly designed by that Christian god fellow.
Part of our heteronormative society’s Breeder Brainwashing is to talk or rather brainwash guys into vagina, or to talk themselves into liking vagina, one guy encouraging another “You’ve got to try pussy bro, it’s totally awesome. It’s paradise.” This is so that they won’t think about or fathom any gay thoughts. This is still going on in 2019 and will be forever more, Amen.
Despite how breeder sex is extremely over-exaggerated and over-hyped with words such as “Pussy is amazing, awesome and paradise,” when you think about it, the opening to the vagina is completely in the wrong place. First, it’s too close to that smelly asshole. For breeder sex, the clitoris should be at a place where a guy’s dick automatically stimulates the clitoris when he’s inside the vagina. But that’s not the case at all. It’s as if females are built wrong. I suppose most people have never thought about that. That Christian god fellow whom we are told made peoplekind didn’t seem to think that through very well. “He” didn’t put the opening of the vagina directly at the clitoris so that the clit would automatically be stimulated when he’s fucking her. Instead, for some damn odd reason, that god fellow put the vagina way down at the bottom (why there?), an inch or less (depending upon the female) from her anus, which, again, is not near her clitoris. So consequently, with the female anatomy, the clit with some supposedly 8,000 nerve endings being the pleasure center of the vulva does not get stimulated at all when a guy is fucking her. Also, there are very few nerve endings inside the vagina. Therefore, despite any acting of erotic ecstasy on her part with the signature ubiquitous and perfunctory high-pitch annoying squeals that females are known to make when getting fucked, the woman is really left sexually unsatisfied while the guy is fucking her, if he or she is not masturbating her clit independently, and depending upon how accessible her clit is to begin with. Some guys never find it because it can be so hidden with the hood, so they just finger the hood. Related: No pleasure during female sex.
On another topic, I read a comment online from a guy. He wrote: My girlfriend, whom I love dearly, works at home and doesn’t take a shower every day. Previously, I enjoyed eating her pussy, but because of her lack of hygiene I really have to do some sniffing around without her knowing it because I’m very turned off by the smells around her vagina. It’s a mixture of vagina and anal smells. Not sure what to do about this, if anything, because I’m sure it would upset her if she were to read this. It’s just that I’m very hygienic, but she is not and it’s become a problem.
A personal observation: I’ve watched a few straight sex videos produced in Russia. They were more of the homemade type. One thing I noticed is that none of the guys ate pussy. The girl sucked the guy’s dick and he played with her tits and fucked her, but that was the extent of it. The females in the videos seemed to have very loose pussies because, again, it took the guys forever to cum. Then I found this statement online: “Eating pussy is considered effeminate and sometimes gay in Russia.” I think that’s because the guy is considered being subservient to the girl when eating her pussy and he’s ingesting the female hormone estrogen. And that’s considered “gay” because he should be ingesting testosterone. So, perhaps that’s why these guys in the videos that I’ve seen didn’t eat pussy. But I specifically noticed that and wondered about it. If I find a Russian sex video where the guy does eat pussy, I’ll update this.
And part of Breeder Brainwashing is that a guy is supposed to love the smell of pussy because that makes him a “real man.” Also, per Breeder Brainwashing a “real man” is also supposed to be into any and all discharges from pussy, including menstrual period discharges. Mi amigo just said as I was reading this to him: “Now, we’re getting into the ultra gross.” But I’m not making this up. That’s what I’ve read from guys claiming that that’s what “real men” like. Here’s The Ultimate Color Guide to Vaginal Discharge if you’d like to read up on that. But, per Breeder Brainwashing, a “real man” does not want to try to get rid of any rank musky odors from pussy because of course that contradicts the concept of being a “real man.” But I’ll provide the link anyway to be as thorough as possible: 7 Tips for Getting Rid of Vaginal Odor. Related: Men Explain, in Great Detail, Why They Don’t Eat Pussy.
Mi amigo/My friend who started out with pussy before he came out of the closet, completely disagrees with today’s brainwashing hype about how wonderful pussy is. He says pussy was no big deal, a turn-off in fact, and he couldn’t stand the smell no matter how much she washed it. A smell of some rankness is always there. Also, he said: “She just lays there and does nothing usually except an occasional squeal.” He’s told me of how he and his guy friends when they were in their 20s and 30s were floating down a river on Inner Tubes. They made sure the females were in front of them (or down-wind) so that their menstrual blood would flow down-river and not into the guy’s Inner Tube. By the second day, he said the guys would have to stay up-wind from the females because it was a hot Summer week and the females were just wearing bathing suits. He also says that when he was in the US Army that the guys would use cans of whipped cream (the aerosol type), applying it in and on her pussy to tone-down the smell, if they had to eat pussy. At that time, he says that Black guys didn’t eat pussy. It was just the young white guys that did that. He also said that in those days that there was no him-tall-dominant/her-short-submissive with breeder couples. That they were pretty much the same height as most gay couples are today and always have been. He said that from his experience, because of a female’s emotional instability and where she acts like an emotional train wreck too much of the time, he found a female to be the worst travel companion one could have.
One might think that through evolution that the female sexual plumbing might have been “corrected” or redesigned? Although I don’t know how that might happen, but clearly it’s designed incorrectly despite all the drama and hype about how pussy is the best thing since the Earth was created, or at least that’s the impression one gets.
Mi amigo says: Maybe the pussy needs to be made even more stinky — although he says he doesn’t know how it could be any stinkier — to keep guys away considering we really don’t need any more babies to be pumped out since the world is already overpopulated. Very true.
File this under:
-The Century of Insanity.
–Subcategory: Going back in the closet with gay shame.
I saw Brett Chukerman the other day on HSN2 as I was channel surfing. I noticed him because my gaydar went off. In the ad I saw on the network for him, he looked like he and his female programme co-host were trying to be a breeder couple. Another gay guy with a female, I wonder? Heteronormative.
He looked familiar to me, but I couldn’t place him. Researching him I see he had done quite a bit of gay porn which — from reading some of HSN’s forum — the female viewers got riled up about when he was hired years ago. They said Brett hadn’t been properly “vetted” by HSN to have such a “checkered past.” (roll eyes) Conservative prudish (anti-gay?) females. Then on the show he was hosting later on, I saw a large wedding ring on his left hand “breeder” finger and thought wtf? Another gay guy married to a female here in the Century of Insanity and having gone back in the closet to “Assimilate with the breeders?” (Related: Why gay guys should wear their wedding rings on their right hand). I thought to myself: Oh here we go again with yet another gay guy who desperately wants to be a clone of the straights. Sigh. Another heteronormative gay guy? Seems so. Running from the word gay? Uh huh. People like him make me turn the channel because I see someone who is not fully comfortable with himself as a gay guy. Sad.
Researching him I found this:
Brett Chuckerman [sic] attended Highland Park High School… I was in the theater department with him. Never saw him engage in any explicitly gay activity, but he was overtly effeminate. He seems to be wearing a “mustache” now because he so badly wants mainstream acceptance, but back in the day it seemed pretty obvious that he was certainly homosexual.
I wasn’t at all surprised to find that he was acting in “gay” movies a handful of years later. I WAS however surprised to hear that he claims not to be gay… lol. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Yes, he is. He and his partner Todd W Anthony have been together a while, and they have a son. They live in Palm Harbor, Florida.
[Source: Is Brett Chuckerman Gay in Real Life?]
Then I found this bit of information where he and his boyfriend bought property in St Petersburg as well as this information: Here’s a picture of Brett’s boyfriend/partner that he bought the house with where they live. But please don’t think they’re gay, for heaven’s sake! They wouldn’t stand for that!
(Related: It already feels like we’re back where we started (circa 1970s) as well as this: The Tombstone on the Grave of the US Gay Community reads:).
Closet cases are fucking annoying to me, and then there’s the stress of being in the closet and living a lie. Trying to be somebody you’re not.
Perhaps Brett would say:
I’m married to my boyfriend and we have a son (translation: I’m married with children and we want to be traditionally heteronormative). I’m not gay. lol. (roll eyes) Please don’t call me that dreaded word “gay.”
I see someone who has some problems with his sexuality. Considering this, it’s odd he started out in gay porn. Sounds like the problems may have cropped up since then. Some people do flip out the moment they become a parent. Parenting changes some people into conservatives prudes overnight. I’ve seen that happen. The moment they become a parent, they start whining about the same behaviour they themselves engaged in earlier in their lives when they called themselves “a liberal” or “a progressive.”
Here in the Century of Insanity, I guess two gay guys married to each other are now considered a “straight” couple, eh? Isn’t “Gay Assimilation” wonderful? It’s given some gay guys with their gay shame an excuse to go back in the fucking closet by running from the word gay and living the life of a traditional breeder couple. As I’ve asked many times: This is what The Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement fought for for decades, is it? Makes The Movement feel like it was a complete waste of time frankly. (Related: It already feels like we’re back where we started (circa 1970s)).
You know, some gay guys are quite good-looking on the outside but it’s their insides (their personality) that’s quite fucked up and needs work so that it matches their model-polished veneer exterior. I dated a few guys like that over the years, and they were some of the most fucked-up-in-the-head people from a personality standpoint that I’d ever met. A friend of mine met one of these guys when he was with me for a short time. My friend later told me, “He’s good looking.” I said: ‘Well yeah, on the outside. It’s all cosmetic. But we won’t talk about the inside,’ and I knew things would not work out between us because of that. These guys spend all this time on their façade instead of working to make themselves a better, and more well-adjusted person comfortable with themselves and the sexuality they were born with.
To those gay guys who have a boyfriend/partner and a son and say they’re not gay? Someone needs to see a credible psychotherapist ASAP. Of course they won’t do that because they’re quite comfortable with being in the closet and living a lie and in some cases damaging the lives of other people.
As for Brett’s past, he seems to have been comfortable with his gay sexuality in gay porn series. But as he aged and found a boyfriend and got “the house” and “the kid” he seems to now be running from the word gay. Sad really. Also, to be the ultimate heteronormative and to be as identical to the breeders as possible, I saw a picture of Brett reading a book to his — apparently adopted? — little son but his boyfriend was not shown in the picture nor was any female (also known as “the wife” who might have been shown to give the impression he’s married to a woman). The need to have children goes right along with the traditional conservative institution of marriage. It’s part of society’s Breeder Brainwashing, which many gay couples have adopted as well as they ultimately conform to be as much like the breeders as possible. I never knew that was one of the goals of our proudly-radical movement. I thought we had higher standards than adopting and conforming to traditionally-conservative institutions. Ugh.
Update: I saw on HSN’s FB page an announcement that said that Brett’s son, Jack, was born “yesterday afternoon” (this was back in December of 2013). It didn’t say that Brett and his partner’s son was born. Of course if they were a breeder couple it would have said, “He and his wife welcomed their new son yesterday afternoon…” Or, “his wife delivered a healthy baby boy yesterday afternoon.” I don’t know who is being more closeted, Brett and his boyfriend or HSN? Instead it said, from their page: “Welcome Jack and congratulations Brett Chukerman and family! Here he is!! Our adorable son Jack was born yesterday afternoon and is an angel! Everyone is healthy and we are thrilled!” “Everyone” is healthy? Who exactly is “everyone?” Don’t you just love the closeted code language? Nothing about “the mother”/(surrogate mother?) or any female. Looks like he and his boyfriend have expanded their family since then
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Why I no longer write about Queer topics, and why am I now using the word “Queer?” That’s because there’s no hierarchy or politics involved in the word “Queer” as opposed to the hierarchy of that “LGBT” nonsense that’s saturated all over the internet. Also, Queers (and the word Queer) make breeders nervous and we enjoy every minute of it. (smile)
Then there are the fake bi guys:
Are most bi guys bi? No, they think “bi” makes them come off as more “straight,” macho and masculine as they run from the word gay. (I’m not talking about the genuine bi guys; I’m talking about the thousands of frauds pretending to be bi when they’re really gay and have zero interest in females.
Ashamed to be Gay
Kissing Tim Poster
These two are hot.
This “Kissing Tim” poster
reminds me of the
“Castro Clone look.”
Anyone remember that look?
You never see that now in
today’s conservative, sanitised
and Disneyfied Castro,
which has been lost to the
straights. From what mi amigo
heard at his gym, guys are required
to now keep their shirts on so as not
to show any skin. (roll eyes)
This article revisited: El 10 de junio de 2014/10 June 2014. In these increasingly conservative days, it seems that more and more gay guys are ashamed of their gay sexuality. How sad. We really are heading backwards in many ways despite some advances. Mi amigo said I could have titled this article, “Ashamed to be Gay” and that might be a more accurate title. I agree. He and I certainly noticed this increasing “Bi Fad” on the site I call ClosetList for awhile where most gay guys don’t say they’re gay but rather many if not most gay guys seemed ashamed of their sexuality by the language they use and the way they write their personal sex ads. They say they’re bi, even though most of them are likely gay based on the experience of mi amigo (see the article below). I did a search on ClosetList in its last days when that was around for sex personals to see how many self-identifying bi guys there were posting under the gay “Men Seeking Men” category in the San Francisco Bay Area as opposed to self-identifying gay guys. I did my search based on the keywords in guy’s ads. Here are the results as of this writing:
Ads with the word “bi”: 977
Ads with the word “gay”: 368
Ads with the word “straight”: 520
As you can see, the word gay has the least number of ads under the gay section, Men Seeking Men. How odd. Doesn’t that strike you as a bit strange?
(What’s Wrong With Gay Dick?) That’s followed by guys claiming to be “straight” when they are really bisexual or they are gay guys (and most pretending to be bi) looking for “straight” guys. There’s this craze for sucking “straight” dick with some gay guys. (My Question: How is “straight” dick different than any other dick?) I think one of the newest and most shallow fads is to call yourself something that you’re not. Call yourself “bi.” I think more and more muchachos are using the word “bi” because everybody else is using it in their ad so follow the sheeple. Just like using the ubiquitous word “discreet,” to fit in and to appear more “straight.” Because we all know how bad and terrible it is to be gay. Gay is bad. It’s bad, it’s bad. [Full-blown sarcasm intended]. “Gay is bad” is unfortunately the impression I get from reading many if not most of those ads on ClosetList. As some states (including California) now have same-gender marriage legal how ironic that it’s now bad to be gay in so many guy’s minds. So let’s all call ourselves “bi” even though many/most of us aren’t bi. Just say we are, because a guy is closer to being “straight” if he says he’s bi, seems to be the thinking. We have some fucked up in the head closet case gay people here in San Francisco (of all places!) and the Bay Area based on these ads on ClosetList. I didn’t realise there were that many (sexually) fucked up people out there, at least here. It’s very strange. As the gay populace becomes more and more conservative, it’s back in the closet time or call yourself bi. And pretend to be a “straight” (obnoxious) jock, rather than saying gym-toned or athletic. I remember after I came out decades ago, my many amigos and I didn’t go through all of this gay shame nonsense. We had none of that. Not one of us. But today, Gay Shame/Gay Discreet is happening in the former Gay Mecca known as San Francisco and the Bay Area. This is also happening in other US cities from reading those personal ads. There has got to be something in the water.
I ran into mi amigo/my friend a couple of days ago and the timing was good because I wanted to ask him his opinion about something: Are most bi guys bi? Here’s what he told me:
He’s a Queer boy and not bi (I already knew that). But when he does non-paid phone sex on his own—he’s worked in the phone sex industry—he told me that consistently when he talks with a guy who says “I’m bi” that the guy hangs up on him whenever mi amigo tries to talk with him about chicks and pussy. The guys who claim to be bi that he has on the phone consistently only want to talk about sex with guys (jacking off, sucking dick and fucking). He said it’s very rare to talk with a bi guy about fucking or eating pussy because the bi guys he’s talked with show no interest in that at all on the phone and hang up on him. The call can start out initially about chicks or “banging some girl” but then quickly goes to guys and if mi amigo tries to go back to chicks and to talk about pussy, that’s when the hang up occurs and the call ends. The so-called “bi” guy hangs up consistently. Mi amigo says he tells phone sex guys that he’s bi but he really isn’t. He says that is not uncommon. He’s Queer and has never had sex with a female and has no interest in females. I asked him: Could you have sex with a female? He said: Oh I suppose I could but my sexual orientation is Queer so that’s where my sexual feelings are the stronger. I could choose to have sex with a female and that would fall under the less-strong/weaker “sexual preference” category, but I wouldn’t necessarily enjoy it because I’m not into females and he said, “I’m a vegetarian and I don’t eat or like fish.” He continued: I would just be going through the motions if I were to have sex with a female. Many hetero guys are thinking about guys when they’re fucking their girlfriends or wives. (That’s true.) All that makes sense to me.
He said he reads CL ads regularly and he too has seen all of the supposed “bi guys” on CL (the site I’ve written some articles about). I said, do you think most of them are bi? He said: well they’re clearly looking for guys in their ads because they are on the “men for men” category—and often the “girlfriend is away or out of town”—so some of them could be bi or they are calling themselves “bi” as code for butch, masculine and that obnoxious “straight-acting” heteronormative language that some closet-case gay guys use. I think “bi” is just a fantasy for many guys who are not really bi, he said.
He continued: Years ago when I was doing phone sex I talked many times with a guy on the East Coast (of the US/los Estados Unidos/The Cesspool) who was bi and all we talked about was fucking and eating pussy. We talked many times on a phone sex line. He was a hot guy to talk with. Then years later, I had one other guy who claimed to be hetero and he was married to a female, but he was really bi (she didn’t know he’s bi) in the true sense of the word. After months of talking with him in phone sex conversations about dick and pussy we were getting too close and I had to cut it off because I sensed he was trying to become my boyfriend. But since then, whenever I’ve tried to replicate a conversation with another guy who claims to be bi, it hasn’t worked since the guy only wants to talk about dick. My new strategy is that when a guy tells me he’s bi and if I want to keep him on the phone because I like his voice and how he sounds, I make a point of not talking about pussy or chicks at all and that works well. They don’t hang up on me when I avoid talking about chicks.
So I then asked him since we were in San Francisco’s Castro: As the Castro becomes more and more “straight,” do you see GLBTQs going back in the closet in order to “fit in” and “be discreet?” (and that word “discreet” is saturated throughout CL ads).
His response: I’ve noticed the hetero couples walking by us as we’ve been standing here with their in-your-face we’re straight “look” (for lack of a better word). I hope GLBTQs don’t go back in the closet but I could see that happening. I think it’s already happening. Or will gay guys start “dating girls” and fucking pussy because they think that’s the “in” thing to do now and to fit in with the herd? Will they think: Gay is out and hetero is in so let me “turn hetero” (as if that’s fucking possible!). He continued: To that I say, “Fucking idiots and fucked up in the head.” They could do that (“turn hetero” so to speak) but they would only be back to living in the closet and living a lie and pretending to be something they’re not—what exactly was the former Gay Rights Movement for and about anyway?!—since their sexual orientation is gay. They could do that, but I’m seeing the same things you’re seeing. I’m seeing a guy hooked up with a female walking down Castro hand-in-hand and he looks like a Queer boy to me. (Yes, I’ve written about that too). He continued: Like you say, it’s a weird time in the US and in San Francisco. What is this place turning into? He said: I call it a collapse of our society and for those paying attention there are many indicators of that happening right before us. (He’s correct).
DISCREET is the opposite of “Out and Proud.”
Some readers have asked me via e-mail: Why are you no longer writing about Queer topics? Well, that’s because I don’t see any reason to. Why should I bother? I’ve written about Queer topics for years and it didn’t do any good. Nothing changed for the positive. There’s nothing else to say about it. Only a few people seem to care in the big scheme of things. As with some other topics I used to write about, I seem to be “fighting an uphill battle” or “a lost cause.” Several examples that come to mind explaining this and some of which overlap: I’ve become disgusted with what the Queer community has become and turned into. Today, they are mostly DISCREET (translation: closeted), conservative, pro-corporatist, pro-Establishment, DISCREET, mainstream, DISCREET, non-alternative, DISCREET, non-proudly radical, sanitised, DISCREET, shallow sheeple trying to emulate the boring (and often conservative) mainstream breeders. Queers today are the DISCREET opposite of who and what they were during the decades of the Gay and Lesbian Rights’ Movement.
1. Monitoring television programming, one would think that the entire world consists of breeders. One gets the impression there’s not one openly Queer person in el mundo/the world, other than that heteronormative, corporatist, pro-Establishment, Obamabot Ellen daily promoting silly, dumbed-down and “stupid-is-in” and making millions doing so. She didn’t care how many immigrants the Deporter-in-Chief had deported or how many breeders and Queers Mr Nobel Peace Prize had droned or killed in other parts of the world in his 8 wars as she gushed over him at every opportunity? Or is she oblivious to all that? And I know Anderson Cooper is an openly-Queer boy, but I’m making a point here. Most of the (closeted) Queer people before network cameras pretend to be breeders. They refuse to come out of the closet and announce that they’re Queer. Despite some advances that have been made for Queers over the decades, those advances are not reflected in 99.9% of corporate network television programming. All the programming on the español language networks I monitor is breeder-based. I am so tired of seeing him fawning over her, him making out with her, him holding needy-her’s hand, him holding her chin, him playing with her hair, her running over to him for more attention with one foot up in the back (she’s perched on one foot) desperate for attention, and him doing other things with her, when it’s more than obvious to me and my reliable Queerdar that “him” is really a closeted Queer boy. Such as the breeder-based dating programme that started on TV Azteca recently in the afternoons. According to my Queerdar, I’ve seen one closet case Queer boy after the other on there wanting to date a female. (roll eyes). Is this stuff for real or is staged just to create a programme? Do they ever have real dates? I don’t know. Mi amigo/My Queer friend says the same about the closet cases on television. In all of the Latino/Hispano/mexicano community, I only know of TWO Queer boys that are out of the closet. Just TWO. That’s it. Those two are Ricky Martín (Enrique Martín Morales) and Christian Chávez (José Christian Chávez Garza). All the others are closet cases despite the public being fed the wishful-thinking lie that “gay is now mainstream.” Yeah sure it is. That’s why I constantly read anti-Queer comments on political message forums and YouTube videos and everywhere else. “Gay is so mainstream” that’s why Queers are saturated all over my television. NOT!
I don’t watch the English-language networks but I would guess that they’re no different. I suspect 99% of the programming on those networks is breeder-based too. In the last few months I’ve read about one or two of those corporate networks planning to do a “gay programme” or bring back one they did in the past. Then some shallow, corporatist Queer organisation jumped up and down in celebration about this. Get. A. Grip. As some of us see it, it’s nothing but a “flash in the pan” in the big scheme of things and nothing to get excited about. Too often with these “gay programmes,” or when they feature a person who is supposedly Queer, they merely show stereotypical Queer guys and lesbians to continue outdated stereotypes. I’ll get exited when corporate networks changed their programming to where a large segment of their programming is Queer-based. I’m not holding my breathe for that to happen. But these little “token” gay programmes are meaningless in the big scheme of things as far as some of us are concerned.
2. 99.9% of the public — including Queers — use that cookie-cutter “LGBT” acronym nonsense because that’s what they see all over the internet. Even the anti-Queer far-right use “LGBT.” Some of us can’t stand the “LGBT” nonsense for several reasons:
1) to begin with, it leaves out Queers entirely…whatever nutball dreamed it up was prejudice against Queers.
2) “LGBT” is the hijacking of the original Gay and Lesbian Rights’ Movement by lesbians when they were not the dominant group of the moment so why are they getting “top-billing?” and
3) some people are asking: “What’s wrong with you gay guys, why are you giving “top billing” to lesbians? Why are you allowing that when you did most of the work during the Gay and Lesbian Rights’ Movement? Agreed. Yes, I fail to understand why lesbians get top billing. That makes no sense to me. I’ve read that the “L” was put first by one of those corporatist gay media organisations because lesbians were feeling neglected. (roll eyes) Oh the poor things. Well if their ass had done more during the Gay and Lesbian Movement they wouldn’t feel neglected. They deserve what they get, which is second billing as in GLBTQ, if one must use any acronym. That’s the way it should be written: GLBTQ. But personally, I’m starting to use the word Queer instead of any letters since this topic and acronyms feel like a lost cause.
3. The gay community to me and other Queers now seems dead and closeted. As I write in the article below, they’ve gone from proudly-radical and “out and proud” to proudly discreet which means either you’re closeted and/or cheating on somebody (or both). Looking at personal sex ads (on the site I call ClosetList), most gay guys today are calling themselves “bi” when they’re really gay. They think that “bi” makes them sound more like a breeder, more masculine, manly and macho even though they have no interest at all in pussy or in females but in today’s world lying and deception are in especially in personal sex ads where hardly anything is real about those. Calling oneself “bi” when one is really gay is a form of internalised homophobia because one is ashamed of the word “gay.” Didn’t most Queers work through this years ago during the decades of the Gay and Lesbian Rights’ Movement? Apparently not! And some of us see a major rise in internalised homophobia in the Queer commmunity today. It’s really pathetic what the Queer community has turned into. Mi amigo/My friend said the other day: “I get the impression that most Queer people are back in the closet.” That’s the impression I get too in the former Gay Mecca of San Francisco.
4. Just like with the breeders, from what we’re seeing most Queers today are wearing all-black or black and gray. What happened to the pretty Rainbow Flag colours, Queer boys? Today, it seems that most Queers consider the Rainbow Flag “too gay.” Yet another example of what I mean by going back in the closet with internalised homophobia. It’s as if Queers consider wearing colour an indicator that they’re Queer rather than a breeder and we can’t have that! No, the breeders are wearing all-black and/or black and gray and looking like white nationalists so the conformist Queers think they must do the same in order to “fit in” and “assimilate” with the breeders. Translation: Going back in the closet. Ugh.
5. In this new tech-zombie San Francisco, mi amigo (a Queer boy) has told me repeatedly about how he has made the mistake of fleetingly glancing at another guy on the sidewalk (no one cruises anyone anymore) — who apparently turns out to be a breeder — and the guy gives mi amigo a very disapproving, snarling angry look as if he’s about to say, “don’t you look at me you faggot.” Sigh. This anti-Queer behaviour did not happen in the San Francisco of the Gay Mecca. This has happened in the new Breeder Mecca and here which has taken over and replaced the former Gay Mecca. I should point out that people who are secure with themselves and their sexuality would not respond the way these breeder basura respond just because another guy happened to fleetingly look at them. Los pendejos.
So in conclusion, to me this all seems like an uphill battle and I’m tired of it and tired of wasting my time writing about it. All I see are breeder people (making out), or Queers (both guys and females) trying to pretend to be breeders and heteronormative so that no one will possibly think that they are Queer because we know how awful that is, right? (More internalised homophobia.) In San Francisco’s Castro, the former gay mecca, I now do a double-take when I see two guys kissing or making out because it is now so rare to see that. I even stop to watch briefly and appreciate them because it’s such a rare sight to see now here in The Breeder Mecca full of fleets of baby strollers. (Have these breeders never heard of birth control of any kind?) These days I expect to see breeders kissing or making out or nearly uncontrollably having sex on the sidewalk (as if they just met) in The Castro. The Castro has been ruined. The Castro today is nothing like it was when I moved here during the height of the Gay Mecca days. Get this: Can you believe that a group of Queers a year or so ago started a project to Queer The Castro? It hasn’t worked, but that’s how bad it’s gotten here with prudish and in some cases anti-Queer breeders taking over The Castro. It used to be that Queer boys and Queer couples walked by my window talking. Now it’s breeders with loud and/or screaming children walking by my window talking. And it seems to be a requirement with breeders that he has to be 3-4 feet taller than her — from my research that’s her requirement — and she has to be submissive to him as if she’s living in the Victorian era where females are supposed to be submissive and subservient to guys (in order to get his attention that needy and high-maintenance her constantly demands from him).
Upon reflection, it seems that Queers will have to have their rights eroded or removed completely to get them out of the closet again and off their electronic leashes and to return to the vigilance and activism of the decades of the former Gay and Lesbian Rights’ Movement. But from what I see of the apathetic and closeted Queer community today, I’m not holding my breathe that any of that is about to happen anytime soon. Because the attitude of most Queers today seems to be, “I’m like whatever” and “Where’s my phone?” Chau.—el barrio rosa
Do gay male couples exist?
Do gay male couples exist? Not from observing the US corporate media and advertising. This morning mi amigo/my friend was on some site, a political news site, I think. I glanced at his PC screen and there was this big ad image of a “him and her” couple in a fawning over each other position. We’ve seen images like that countless times. Too many times. I’m sick of seeing breeders shoving their sexuality in my face (a complaint they themselves made about Queers some years ago, but of course it’s perfectly okay when breeders do it; their hypocrisy is noted). But an image of a gay male couple in the same position? Never. The image I’m referring to was intended to display Mr and Ms Breeder Couple. The subliminal message of the image: “You must be straight and a breeder to be considered ‘normal’.” I asked mi amigo: Well it’s good that they showed us a gay male couple. Where are they? He said: I never see that anywhere. I said: Exactly. Because it’s as if we don’t exist in the corporate media and advertising and it’s also as if gay guys don’t exist. When they show a Queer couple it’s always two women. It’s always a lesbian couple because lesbians are considered “more acceptable” to the prejudiced and bigoted breeders in our society who have less of a problem seeing two women holding hands, kissing and fawning over each other because the thinking is: “That’s what girls do.” (roll eyes) Earlier in the morning I was researching something gay related — I forget what it was now — and the only images this gay site showed were that of two women. Lesbian couples. No gay male couples exist in their world either? I clicked off. I’ve had it up to here with this shit. I’d go so far to say that since gay marriage became legal in the US, that there’s been this overdrive push to heavily promote breeder/straight sexuality and breeder couples as a backlash to gay marriage, which frankly I rarely hear anything about anymore. Also, when they show gay guys on television, they’re made out to be straight — unless it’s a gay guy to be made fun of — no matter how much one’s gaydar goes off telling one that the guy is obviously gay. I’m thinking of a certain home shopping network specifically. These guys I’m talking about deliberately wear their wedding ring on their “breeder finger” (left hand) to make the audience think they’re straight, rather than on their right-hand fourth finger. (Related: Gay Wedding Ring Deception and Why gay guys should wear their wedding rings on their right hand). On the corporate media and advertising, I also see an excess of images of “him and her” and the “him” is a closeted gay guy — according to my very reliable gaydar — and he’s posing with “her” and of course they have a child. Gotta have a child (or a whole brood of them) as a closeted gay guy to prove that you’re really straight/a breeder. But if you were to say something to Mr Closet Case “him” about it, the claws would come out in defensiveness as he lives in that unhealthy closet here in 2019. But again, a gay male couple in advertising? No where to be found. It’s good that we’ve made so much progress, isn’t it? [sarcasm intended] Only lesbian couples are shown and considered “acceptable.” (Related: Gay Guys are not Equal). Is that what that revisionist history “LGBT” nonsense is about where lesbians get first-billing with the “L” being first in “LGBT?” When the bitches didn’t do most of the work of the Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement and merely rode on the coattails of the Movement and hard work that was really led by gay guys and trans individuals? Has the “L” being first made “lesbians acceptable” even though the rest of us aren’t? If so, note to gay guys: Dudes/Gay boys, we could be the group considered “acceptable” if gay guys hadn’t allowed lesbians to hijack our Movement by moving their big bull dyke asses to first place and hiding gay guys in second place with that conformist “LGBT” lie/revisionist history nonsense that one sees spammed all over the internet. Just because they owned a hog doesn’t mean they had the right to take over our now-dead Movement. Ugh. Chau.—el barrio rosa
“This New City sucks!”
Well, when the neighbourhood (The Castro) began to slowly change I was very slow to talk about it. Was this a temporary change? If not, why even mention it? I had always talked very positively about San Francisco, the City I loved. I’d always had mixed feelings about The Castro (now the former Gay Mecca) because I didn’t always feel welcomed there even as a gay guy. It was too cliquish and conformist. I didn’t fit in. I remember the night standing in Harvey Milk Plaza that I saw something I’d never seen there before: A straight couple making out and kissing under the big Rainbow Flag. Seeing that stunned me, and I’m not easily stunned, shocked or surprised by much. But I’d never seen that in the Plaza or in The Castro ever. Up until then, the breeders didn’t flaunt their sexuality in our faces in — what was turning out to be — the dying Gay Mecca. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. I asked mi amigo/my friend who was with me at the time: Why do they have to make out here? If I did that in their neighbourhood — even somewhere else in San Francisco — I’d likely here, “Can you take that back to the Castro? Get out of here! We don’t like that here (with a softly spoken: Faggots).” As it turned out, that first straight kiss I saw in the Plaza was the beginning of what we now see today: A Breeder Mecca and no longer a Gay Mecca. The conservatives around here couldn’t be happier, although you wouldn’t know that to look at their sour faces today. They’ve always wanted this, except it’s really hurt their business and backfired on them because there’s now much less foot traffic. There are so many closed stores now in The Castro. At night it doesn’t feel like a safe or welcoming place to be. They deserve what they get. And these new residents: Ugh. I don’t know where these snotty trash moved here from, but, they have no personality at all or a personality resembling cold cement. Snotty fucks best describes 99% of them. I think part of it is their ageism: They give some of us older guys the nastiest and disapproving looks even though we only fleetingly glance at them without them seeing us do that. On weekends around here, it’s a parade of young, white him-tall/her-short breeder couples. Streams of them. The straights are still continuing to pour in here from somewhere. Where are they coming from and why? That’s another thing we don’t understand. San Francisco is now the most expensive City in the US, so why would breeders want to move to the most expensive place in the country? To show off their wealth or what? The Bay Area is now dubbed “Billionaire Bay” and there are only so many wealthy people. Apparently they’re still falling for that “San Francisco is the city of innovation” myth since we are now the Tech Capital giving corporate welfare through tax breaks to predatory and parasitic millionaire/billionaire-owned tech companies and their seemingly-lobotomised ageist and sexist techies. Most of these guys (these new residents) try to look like hard-assed jocks, especially in the gym according to mi amigo/my friend. Some of them are homophobic yet deliberately moved here, and the female he’s with usually looks as if she has an eating disorder (anorexic-looking). And of course the needy and self-absorbed females with these Millennial guys always need his constant attention, his petting, required hand-holding, stopping every block to make out with her to re-assure her that he still loves needy and insecure her. jesus fucking christ, who has the patience for all of the shit that females require? Gay male couples are nothing like these breeders. The gay male couples seem more mature and secure with themselves. Some of us gay guys don’t go out much on the weekend now to avoid being annoyed with breeder sexuality everywhere we look. A gay guy in my apartment building recently told me that he avoids The Castro “gay” bars because there are too many straight females in them now. When most people around here talk about this change to The City and Castro they talk in code. They never come right out and say what I’m writing here because it’s as if they don’t want to offend the breeders. Well frankly, I don’t give a fuck whether I offend them or not. I’ve had it up to here with them. I know that things change (usually for the worse) and that cities change. But this change has been so extreme and drastic. Mi amigo/My friend heard two gay guys (he was able to find two gay guys at his mostly breeder gym) and one said to the other: “This new city sucks!” The other guy said, “No, they don’t.” Meaning these new residents don’t suck dick. They’re above that and too entitled and self-absorbed and expect to be “serviced.” Mi amigo was up on Twin Peaks the other day. It was nearly all breeders up there and many were making out of course. That’s required, you know. A Breeder couple = you must make out on Twin Peaks or at Ocean Beach. That’s because the corporate media have so brainwashed breeders that they must make out when looking out at any view whether it be the view from Twin Peaks or the view from Ocean Beach. When I was riding my bike up to Twin Peaks on a regular basis I constantly saw “him and her” up there making out. First it starts out with her needing to be held and leaning her head on his chest while looking at the view. Then he puts his arm around her to protect her….from what? Then she gazes up into his eyes with her limpid eyes. He looks down at her holding her chin and then comes the first beso/kiss. I think they’re pretty much all first dates that go up there. They look out at the view as if praying for their happiness as a (dysfunctional) breeder couple by looking at the view of the Bay Area. Note to breeder couples: Your happiness ain’t based on or going to come from some view. Your happiness, if you have any, will come from within. But I saw this nonsense constantly when I was up there. I didn’t see any gay couples do this shit. They knew better. And now here in 2019, if the one gay male couple mi amigo saw up there had started making out there would likely have been howls of, “You guys stop that! Take that down to The Castro.” At which point the gay guys would have had every right to respond to the homophobic bigots by saying, “Why should we take our making out down to The Castro? It’s not welcomed down there either anymore. Haven’t you noticed? And why the fuck don’t you take your sucking face which we don’t care to see either over to the Marina or North Beach (traditionally straight areas of San Francisco)? We’ve heard several longtime local residents mention that they have considered leaving San Francisco because they do not like this New City or The Castro — they say that The Castro has been ruined (which it has), there’s now no culture or art there, there is no Queer activism now (that’s dead) and they can’t stand the people there — but these local residents always run into the #1 snag: Where to go where it won’t be worse? So they say they’re staying here and putting up with it. The same here. (Related: Queering The Castro.)
San Francisco used to be a very Bohemian, welcoming, nonjudgmental City that welcomed the outcast, welcomed the nonconformist, welcomed the alternative and people who were not accepted anywhere else for various reasons. Not any more. This New City of conformist snotty Millennials who have moved here in droves have completely erased the Old City. Again, I don’t know where these snots came from but they are some of the most unfriendly, culture-less, seemingly-lobotomised and judgmental people one will find anywhere if one does not look exactly like them. And they’re usually wearing drab and depressed-looking all-black or black and grey clothing as if they’re part of some cult. They also seem to have been born without vocal chords and were never taught (or rejected) good manners and politeness. They think everyone owes them the world; they think they are very special and self-entitled. When I researched them awhile back, I read that their “baby boomer” parents brainwashed them with this thinking that they are very special people and deserve the best, no matter how fucking stupid they act. They have ruined this City with their “Conform! Conform! Obey” way of thinking. Most of them are straight or pretend to be (closet cases) with some homophobia. One sees very few gay male couples among the Millennials, and on the odd occasion that you do, they’re just as fucking snotty and unfriendly as all the others. They refuse to look at anyone who is older as if brainwashed with ageism. There’s no sense or feel of “community” at all now. That’s why some long time San Franciscans have been heard saying, “This New City sucks!”
“Assimilated” really means back in the closet (US)
And the closet cases among us do try so hard to convince themselves and the public that they’re straight. After a minute of research on this guy I saw on television, my search engine brought up a profile that read: “Husband, dad, ….” That’s the first thing on the guy’s mind to tell everyone that he’s a husband and dad, or a breeder? That seemed irrelevant to the site I was on. Of course anyone coming to this page would likely know that a “husband and dad” can also apply to a gay guy, but that’s not at all the intent here. Since most people wouldn’t even remember that gay marriage exists, this guy and thousands just like him want people to think he’s straight. He may have a wife and kids but that doesn’t make him straight. He’s still a closet case. And he too wears his wedding ring on the “breeder finger.” But even the lamest Gaydar(TM) can tell that this guy is Queer/Gay. I told mi amigo/my friend about this and he said, “But don’t you know? Gay is out, straight is in. Everyone is supposed to be straight now.” He wasn’t joking. That indeed does seem to be the way it is now including here in San Francisco. I can’t remember the last time I heard the word “gay” spoken in The Castro, the former Gay Mecca, or anywhere here! It’s as though the breeders have hijacked the Rainbow Flag. I’m serious….”the gays” certainly don’t seem to have much interest in it these days. In fact, they’ve run from it. (Related: The Rainbow Flag is now “too gay?”). And in some comment sections, people can’t even use the words “gay” or “Queer.” Instead, they write, “I didn’t know he was like that.” “Like that?” That’s language right out of the 1940-50s, an era we’re quickly racing back towards in case one hasn’t noticed.
It’s essentially back in the closet
I was talking with some amigos of mine. We were talking about how San Francisco has changed, for the worse. They said, “Have you noticed how the gay guys are trying to look like straight guys and how the straight guys are trying to look like gay guys, for some damn reason? Yes, I’ve noticed that. The problem with this is that you don’t know who is straight and who is gay because the gay guys give no sign or indication that they’re gay. Mi amigo/My friends says that’s exactly the way it is at his gym. It’s like the gay guys have gone back in the closet, and nobody looks at anyone, and is even afraid to. Look at the wrong guy and watch out! And you don’t dare look at any of these guys in any cruising way because you’ll get this nasty, chip on both shoulders look from the guy as if he’s saying: “Don’t look at me, you faggot.” Sigh. My friends were telling me that they’ve quickly looked at some of these guys and felt threatened for their safety — the opposite of the way it used to be around here — as if they were looking at the wrong guy at the wrong time. Because they were looking at supposedly straight guys who look like gay guys and there’s no way to tell the difference. So yes, it has essentially gone back to the way it was from the start before the now-dead Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement even began. It feels like gay guys have nearly all gone back in the closet. I’ve read similar things about other US cities. It’s a really fucked up time. My gay friends asked me what I thought. Well, I’m just glad that I got to live through the Gay Mecca decades, a time where gay guys were out of the closet and lived in a safe and accepting area that I got to experience and a very important historical movement, which by all indications today appears to be absolutely dead. I’ve seen the same thing with gay guys. I know what my gaydar tells me, but closet cases can act just like belligerent and “don’t-you-dare-look-at-me-faggot” as straight guys. These are weird days and these days in San Francisco I have to admit that I rarely look at anyone because I don’t want to be annoyed by someone’s ugly look at me, especially the frown-faced Millennials. If they aren’t a piece of work! I don’t feel like having some nasty, belligerent look directed at me by what seems to be some asshole. Mi amigo/My friend says the same thing. He’s constantly telling me about the strange and nasty looks he gets from people. He’s an average looking guy. Nothing unusual about him but yet he gets these nasty looks from nuts as if they’re thinking, “Are you a terrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrist?” (roll eyes) Loco./Crazy. Rhetorically, I asked: How much longer are they going to leave up all this Rainbow Flag symbolism in The Castro when it does not fit the area anymore? The Castro is now mostly straight/breeders. I see a stream of young straight couples looking like they just met — her requiring a kiss and make-out session from him every 10-15 seconds to reassure needy her that he still loves her even though they just met based on their behaviour — flowing by my apartment headed into The Castro. So the Rainbow Flag symbolism and history of the area no longer applies. I know they’re trying to exploit the tourists but all any tourists has to do is look around and see that the area is now straight so the Queer symbols is misplaced, and what they’re trying to pretend the area still is doesn’t exist anymore. It’s out of place. And how do breeder couples feel about making out around so many Rainbow Flags? As I’ve written before, it’s almost as if the breeders have hijacked the Rainbow Flag the way they seem to like to make out under them. But if I were straight, it would feel a bit weird to me as if I were in the wrong neighbourhood. Chau.—el barrio rosa
This “straight” guy was all hot for mi amigo
Some tourists visiting San Francisco stopped mi amigo/my friend to ask some questions about directions, and mi amigo “fucked” with the guy because he knew he was a Queer boy. The Queer boy was married to the female he was with. That story has played out millions of times throughout history. She was a little older than the guy and he was wearing a wedding ring on the breeder finger (left hand fourth finger). Mi amigo told me: The guy was obviously a closet case with a wife. He (the guy) was doing all he could to hold back and not have her see him show interest in me. Mi amigo and the guy flirted for a few moments when she wasn’t looking. There was this rather intense “gay vibe” between us, as the guy and I kept looking at each other, then looking down so she wouldn’t catch us heavily cruising each other. As they left, it was clear that mi amigo had made a rather strong and probably lasting impression on the guy and the guy will likely be jacking off to this for some time, and asking himself: Why am I with her? (My answer: Because of society’s Breeder Brainwashing which still brainwashes the masses with the thinking that “you must be straight to be normal”). Mi amigo told me: The guy had his shirt off, was fairly good looking, was probably in his 60s, but it’s so rare to see any guy with his shirt off in today’s male-body-image-phobic society where a guy has to be completely covered up from head to toe. What’s hard for me to understand about this: These closet cases are married to a female and deliberately come to a former Gay Mecca (or maybe they think San Francisco and The Castro are still is a Gay Mecca) even though it isn’t and they still remain closeted here. And as I’ve written before, it seems that most gay guys who live here have gone back in the closet judging by their closeted behaviour and their “discreet” and “down low” and “behind closed doors” language. Maybe if she (his wife) wasn’t with him (this tourist guy all hot for mi amigo), he would have acted completely differently. But the sparks were flying there between them for a few moments. Is she in denial that her husband is gay? That’s often the case with closet case guys. Or because of fantasies, if she hadn’t been there would this situation not been as hot for the guy? That can be part of the hot fantasy for closet cases. To do something that is “forbidden.” Mi amigo said he sort of felt that is what was going on. That the guy was energised by the spontaneousness of it all, with his wife present. On another topic, mi amigo is seeing more and more gay guys (per his reliable gaydar) on U-toob in their videos with their (can you guess?) with their wives. This is what the now-dead Gay Rights Movement fought decades for, is it? For gay guys to marry women and have “a wife?” The same closeted behaviour that has happened for generations. That’s why, upon reflection, at this point the Movement seems like it was a waste of time. So gay guys can pretend to be straight and a breeder. How is that any different than it was before the Movement began? Insane. In many cases, it’s so obvious that the guy is gay. Can’t she see it or is she in denial? I told him: I believe it’s called “going back in the closet.” Sigh. Then he commented on the few gay guys he sees in The Castro on his walks. He said “They’re so snotty. No sense of community. Millennial snots and all they do is look at their phone.” Like I’ve said, you can saturate the Marina district of San Francisco (a traditionally breeder area) with Rainbow Flags but that won’t make the Marina a gay area. The same with The Castro with its over-saturation of Rainbow Flag symbolism. Chau.—el barrio rosa
We don’t smell or have shit in our hair.
So why do we get the nasty looks we do? Mi amigo/My friend and I had dinner the other night with a gay couple we know. They’ve been together for nearly 30 years. They told us they’ve always felt accepted in San Francisco, until the City changed some years ago. Since the Tech Industrial Complex came in and raped San Francisco bringing with it thousands of (mostly) snarly, frown-faced/even angry-looking, cold, seemingly-lobotomised wealthy Millennials — most of whom honestly act like the worst of assholes, what is wrong with these people? — this gay couple told us they no longer feel accepted in the City they have called home for decades. To these new Millennial residents: No one forced your elitist and snotty ass to move here and it’s not our fault that you hate that fucking tech job that you fell for when it was marketed to you with the “San Francisco is the city of innovation” bull shit. This gay couple said, “It’s just really different now. We get the nastiest looks from people and especially from other gay guys, or guys that our gaydar tells us are gay. Or are they back in the closet and don’t like seeing a gay couple? We get these nasty looks regardless of the person’s age. We’ve learned not to look at anyone because of the snarls and disapproving looks we get. We don’t understand it. This did not happen in the Old City before tech came in. Maybe it’s that people here are so unhappy with their own lives now or most are having terrible days and are thinking about that when they see us. Whatever the reason, it’s not good. It makes us feel isolated and we also feel like isolating ourselves. We usually stay in on weekends when we know the Millennial snots are out in droves with their signature frowned face.”
With this gay couple, both guys are average-looking guys. Nothing out of the ordinary about either of them. They wear some colour in their clothing, but they’ve tried wearing all-black or black and grey which seems to be San Francisco’s Official Dress Code in this new conformist City where most people look like they’re going to a funeral, and they say they get the same nasty reactions no matter what they wear. They are a gay couple in their 60s and it’s not as if they’re out cruising anyone or anything like that. They told me they get the same reaction from other gay guys who look around their same age. One said: It’s become so rare to get a friendly, human look of content from anyone that we say to each other when that happens, “We’re shocked that someone actually smiled at us today – write it on the calendar that this happened.”
We understand. Mi amigo/my friend and I get the same thing. Our society has decayed to a level where just basic common courtesy and human kindness of minimal friendliness is a thing of the past in this new City of San Francisco, with few exceptions to that. It’s why some of us say about San Francisco, “It’s nothing like it was.” As an analogy, today’s San Francisco makes Manhattan look like Mayberry with friendly Aunt Bea and Clara and others. In other words, snooty and snotty Manhattan has nothing on San Francisco. This gay couple told us: “We’re both into boys, we’re gay” but in this new City we feel very leery of looking at other boys now. We don’t understand what it is that people are thinking or thinking about us when they see us.”
Well, you’re not alone. We completely relate to what you’re saying and we’ve heard the same thing from other people.
On another topic: Anyone else noticed this silly new fad in San Francisco where every pair of jeans a person wears has to look like they’ve never been worn before, as if people have the “disposal income” for skin-tight disposable jeans? Loco. Crazy. In the Old City, we wore jeans until they were very comfortable and had some holes in them — I still wear them whether anyone likes it or not, like the ones I have on at the moment — and that was considered sexy especially in the former-radical Gay Mecca, which is long gone. Today, that type of jean is sold as “Vintage.” But for the most part, gone are the “vintage” comfortable looking jeans. The conformist Millineals have to all look alike in their absolutely new beyond-skin-tight jeans, only to be worn once and thrown away? That’s the way it seems. It must take them quite a while to get into them and out of them, especially if the person sweaty, as skin-tight as they are to the point where the legs can’t breathe. They’re worn by males and females. Most of the Millennial females look like anorexic cases to begin with as if they have an eating disorder. And I’ve seen some females poured into these skin-tight jeans and they looked more like “a stuffed pig.” It was quite a sight. She thinks she looks good in them with that big ass and thick thighs? Also these skin-tight jeans are not healthy as that can encourage bacteria, fungus infections and other types of skin disorders. But judging by this craze, most don’t care about any of that. This fad overrides any of that. Fads often override “common sense.” Chau.—el barrio rosa
The Naked Guys Are Back (San Francisco’s Castro). Aren’t you Excited?
Well, three of them are. Mi amigo went into The Castro on Sunday afternoon, 14 April 2019. It was moderately crowded. About two-thirds Millennial queers and the rest breeders. Where did the queers come from, I asked, since they’re not here any other time? He said they looked like the “Bridge and Tunnel” crowd — so they’re just here for the cheap watered-down alcohol from other cities in the Bay Area — and there were some old queer guys with their walking canes from the Old City going from bar to bar. But most were snotty Milleneals wearing all-black clothing. They were wearing the ubiquitous lingerie and skin-tight black jeans as is the standard these days around here. There were 3 naked guys from the Old City cruising The Castro. Mi amigo saw no queer guys looking at them. Only the obnoxious straights were looking at them — as if they had never seen a naked person before — and were making fun of them. Yes, they (presumably prudish breeder women) come over here to a former queer area to make fun of queers, or the few remaining queers. That’s the bottom line. But the naked guys are still here apparently but they were getting nothing but hate, and comments from immature breeders passing by them. Three women who apparently know no history of The Castro were making fun of one of the older naked guy’s and his small dick size (it was cold out) saying to him, “You expect to get a girl with that?” Does this ignorant bitch always make assumptions about people’s sexuality she knows nothing about? Go back to your hick and prudish Breedersville, bitch. Fuck off, ya trash. You know that straight guys don’t walk around naked because they’re too ashamed with body-image issues and too prudish to do that. They don’t want any “faggots” to even look at their “junk.” This naked guy was wearing a leather cock ring, a very small one. But that bitch’s immature comment is not what one would expect to hear in a former Gay Mecca saturated with Rainbow Flags. Which makes some of us think that the breeders have hijacked the Rainbow Flag as well. Again, a comment about “getting a girl” is not what one would expect to hear in a former queer area and where there are still a few queers, on the rare occasion. These trash were assuming the naked guy’s sexual orientation when it was clear to mi amigo/my friend that the guy is queer and felt comfortable being naked in what used to be a queer/gay neighbourhood. So, dear reader, this is what the New San Francisco and Castro have become. The opposite of what it was. Script writers couldn’t make this shit up. But this is what the conservatives have wanted for years. I hope they’re happy now, but looking at their frowned faces, they don’t look happy.
One of the queer bars was having a straight event. You read that correctly. Yes, a straight event. Could someone please explain to me why a queer bar would be having a straight event? Why? Well, it’s the Century of Insanity where that type of thing happens, so I guess I should expect it. Always good to promote breeder sexuality in a former Gay Mecca. This City is full of straight bars so why the fuck does a queer bar in The Castro feel the need to have a straight event is beyond us! Well, they’re just trying to cash-in on the new Breeder Mecca which The Castro is most of the time. The other queer bars were packed with a mix of breeders and queers. Can someone tell me again why breeders go to queer bars? Is it to take them over? I have no interest in going to a breeder bar. There were of course the black baby strollers in The Castro, something I never saw in the Old City. And that brings us to another topic:
I got an e-mail from a local queer guy who told me he was down cruising on Market Street near Castro here in San Francisco and he never got a single
look from any guy because what few queer guys there were, they were looking at their damn phone. If one thinks one can “cruise” The Castro and pick up guys, you’re wrong. It’s impossible, unlike the days of the Old City where that was common. As I’ve written before, cruising is long gone here. I don’t see anyone cruising anything but their phone(s) and some of these addicts have multiple phones. Often the guy one is desperately looking for on that phone just walked by him on the sidewalk but neither of you saw each other because you couldn’t bring yourself to look up from that fucking screen. And when one does meet the guy, he has no social skills at all to talk and meet “in person” anyway, so why bother? All he does is stand there and stare as if born without any vocal cords. I suspect such a get-together would resort to texting each other sitting side-by-side on the couch, like so many couples do these days, queers or breeders. Mi amigo said yesterday: I do long for the Old City and its friendliness. Yes, I do understand. This New City sucks. Although the Old City wasn’t that friendly either, but compared to this one it was. It was far friendlier than this New City with its snarly, frowny-faced, chip-on-both-shoulder Milleneals where the words “hello” and “excuse me” are not in their vocabulary. Mi amigo said: It’s depressing being in The Castro these days. It’s similar where you think back on your past and no one you knew is there. Yes, I think it’s the same empty feeling I feel when I think about my disco days with my friends in DC or my experience in Orchestra Choruses, where the Chorus today is an entirely new group of choristers (where is the group I sang with today?), or in the case of the renowned University of Maryland Chorus, they’re no longer around. They were so outstanding so it’s sad to think they’re no longer around. They were disband by the University of Maryland some years ago. But I do know how he feels because I feel the same way. Chau.—el barrio rosa
Why would a closet case move to a (former) gay area?
Mi amigo/My friend and I went grocery shopping today and we couldn’t help but notice the number of closet cases in the store with females, as if they were a breeder couple. You may be asking, “In San Francisco you’re seeing this?” Yes, absolutely. Sounds loco/crazy doesn’t it? The majority of them could not shop without their phone. One wonder how these people ate before they got addicted to a phone? But “Why would a closet case move to a gay area?” is a question that continues to come up here in San Francisco. We continue to see young Millennial “straight” couples together where it’s obvious to us that the guy is queer. No doubt. He tries to hide it including his fleeting cruising and seems to go out of his way to avoid looking at another guy, or anyone really. With San Francisco’s reputation of being a Gay Mecca for decades, I suspect most people including these closet cases still think we are a Gay Mecca, even though we’re not. Most of these new residents seem to have moved here without knowing anything about San Francisco. The Gay Mecca is long gone. The Gay Mecca is now a Breeder Mecca. The breeders have taken over with their in-your-face hand holding and make out sessions under Rainbow Flags. So, considering we’re probably still seen as a Gay Mecca to most people who don’t live here, why would a closet case deliberately move to The Castro or Upper Market or hang out there when they have the whole City (of breeders) where they could be? Or is it because he thinks he might be able to “get some on the side” that she won’t know about. Living a lie, in other words. It annoys, frustrates me, even makes me a bit angry to see a gay boy with his gay shame living a lie here in 2019, not being true to himself and moved to San Francisco, of all places! Why would he move to San Francisco to stay in the fucking closet? Mind-boggling. You would think that a closet case would have moved to a place like Mayberry being that ashamed of his queer sexual orientation. Chau.—el barrio rosa
The Rainbow Flag is now “too gay?”
[My Editorial: Apparently the Rainbow Flag is now "too gay" or seen as such since the supposedly gay (or is it now straight?) obnoxious sports bar on Market Street in San Francisco only flies the Rainbow Flag on Corporate Pride weekend (Friday, Saturday and Sunday) to give the impression to unknowing tourists that the bar is "pro-gay." And they don't want to turn off the anti-gay straights/potential customers by flying a Rainbow Flag 365 days a year. So their Rainbow Flags go back in the closet -- where the male owner is? -- the following Monday after Corporate Pride and they stay there the rest of the year until the next Corporate Pride weekend. Someone who has been to that bar described the gay clientele there as "Closet Cases Anonymous." And the male owner of that bar comes off as quite the closet case, although he said in an interview, "I identify as gay." (roll eyes) Identify? Identify? That sounds so corporate. It is too much trouble for you to say, "I'm gay" and cut out all that "identify" bull shit that the gay sheeple are using these days. You're either gay or you're not. That's the way it usually works. What the fuck is there to "identify" with?]
The official acronym is now: LGBTQQICAPF2K+ (If that isn’t the most ridiculous looking thing I’ve seen in some time).