(You can read “I woke up with a dick in my mouth” at this link.)
2019: Hola chicos/Hello boys. This page is now a series of queer-related articles specifically for queer boys/queer guys.
I’m wondering if the rewriting of “LGBT” by the far-right (as seen on that t-shirt to your right) will make queer conformist sheeple abandon that revisionist history “LGBT” nonsense that one sees spammed all over the internet? I cringe every time I see “LGBT,” even if they think to put a “Q” on the end of it. What do they have against Queers that they leave the “Q” off?
STATEMENT ON “LGBT(Q)”
On pink barrio you will read no dishonest, revisionist history “LGBT(Q)” acronym, because I don’t use that. Fact: Lesbians did not lead the Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement as “LGBT” implies. Somehow, someone moved gay guys to second place. Why? Gay guys led the Movement along with trans individuals and Drag Queens, particularly with two riots at donut shops pre-Stonewall. Lesbians — or one of those elitist queer organisations on their behalf — hijacked our Movement by putting their needy and self-absorbed and self-entitled selves in first place in that silly acronym (LGBT). “LGBT” does not represent me and other queers from comments I’ve read from people online. And how many more fucking letters? The official acronym is this mess: LGBTQQICAPF2K+. If that isn’t the most ridiculous looking thing I’ve seen in some time. It almost looks like a type of barcode. Take for example “gay marriage.” Gay marriage is not called LGBTQQICAPF2K+ marriage. Fortunately. When gay marriage became legal in Taiwan recently, they called it “gay marriage.” They didn’t call it LGBTQQICAPF2K+ marriage. So why does anything else have to be called anything other than the words gay or queer? “LGBT(Q)” is divisive. It divides us up into group which leads to infighting and excluding some people. It becomes a competition to see “who’s the most discriminated against?” Related: Lea DeLaria: The LGBTQIA+ acronym is divisive. Do these “LGBT” corporatist conformist sheeple — and that’s who uses this “LGBT” shit in order to “fit in” and conform — not possess any critical thinking skills whatsoever? And I thought with “Gay Assimilation” that “everyone” wanted to be clones of the straights, no? The straights don’t have any silly acronyms or letters. So why are the conformist corporatists among us still clinging to this Brand LGBT shit? Because they’ve all been brainwashed to use it. And this brainwashing is no different than political partisan cult brainwashing. And sadly this dishonest and revisionist history “LGBT(Q)” is being used all over the world, rather than just the simple words gay or queer. The straights are known as straight or breeder, not this whole string of alphabet soup letters. And their sexual interests are just as varied as that of queers. What has happened to my fellow queers that they have become such fucking conformist, conservative (regardless of political party affiliation) and corporatist sheeple? They have become the opposite of who and what they were doing our proudly radical Left Movement. Chau.—el barrio rosa
Links to short articles on this page:
The wannabe, white fake-jocks in San Francisco and in West Hollywood
The Lies about Pussy. The Great Pussy Scandal.
Brett Chuckerman: Married to his boyfriend but says he’s not gay
Are most bi guys bi?
The Closeted Queer So-Called “Community” (2017 forward)
Do gay male couples exist?
“This New City sucks!” (San Francisco)
“Assimilated” really means back in the closet (US)
It’s essentially back in the closet
This “straight” guy was all hot for mi amigo
We don’t smell or have shit in our hair
The Naked Guys Are Back (San Francisco’s Castro). Aren’t You Excited?
Why would a closet case move to a gay area?
It’s hard to watch. Maybe it’s the same way where you live.
A Womanised Guy. Also, Closet Cases Go Overboard with Breeding to Prove They’re Straight
His parents are trying to make him a straight boy
They hate this new City (San Francisco)
Most queers have become so fucking conservative (San Francisco)
Another Closet Case Breeder Family Moves Into the Neighbourhood
“Out” but in (back in) the closet
Easily Deceived by Rainbow Flags (San Francisco’s Castro)
Gay male couples not allowed in mainstream advertising
Gay Marriage becomes legal in Taiwan
Why do so many guys I see today with a wife or girlfriend look gay to me? (Answer: Because they are).
Which is stronger: The now-dead Gay Rights Movement or the Breeder Movement?
Gay guys like masculine guys and testosterone, but all back in the closet
So sick of breeders. They’re so “in your face.”
Clueless about the New San Francisco
Hola chicos. A certain sports bar that some of us refer to as “the obnoxious bar” in San Francisco that opened shortly after the order was given to “Assimilate with the Straights” following gay marriage becoming legal in the US, has now, like a virus, spread to West Hollywood. Super. [sarcasm intended]. This is a case of gay guys trying to emulate obnoxious, macho, heteronormative breeder jocks. During the now-dead Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement, gay guys who were supposedly health-conscious — although still eating unhealthy in many cases and lighting up a cigarette upon leaving the gym — labeled themselves as “gym-toned” especially in their sex personals. When our Movement died/ended — which by all indications was the day that gay marriage became legal — the term “gym-toned” seemed to have been replaced with the word “jock.” This was presumably done to be like the breeders who were taking over (or already had) queer areas in many major cities (The Village, The Castro, West Hollywood and others). Related: Chelsea: The Death of a Gay Neighborhood, Murdered by Neo-Hetero-Homophobes. The reviews of both bars — both the San Francisco and West Hollywood supposedly-gay sports bars — talk about how great it is to be able to “take in a game” at the bar. Really? “Taking in a game” was not something that I ever heard any gay guys talking about doing during the Movement. Most were not into corporate sports teams and their homophobia, which still exists today despite any token “Gay Day” that some corporate sports teams will have to exploit queer$. This is something relatively new, meaning since gay marriage became legal. One thing we’ve noticed: To the extreme and to be as much like the straights as possible, many heteronormative gay guys with their gay shame think they must be into corporate sports teams, support the US Military Industrial Complex and support that killing machine and anything they do, go back in the closet and marry a female so they can be a “real man” and a “jock” and talk about pussy, be conservative, and have children. I think this is what’s known as Forced-Assimilation with the breeders.
Related: Gay guys self-induced conversion therapy. Insanity is what it is, and I can’t relate. As for those two sports bars I mentioned: Many commenters wrote about both bars: “Nobody is watching the televisions to take in a game.” In other words, that language is just heteronormative bull shit that queers have fallen for and regurgitate on cue to try to “fit in” and be like the obnoxious sports-loving breeders. So this is what the now-dead Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement fought decades for over the years, is it? Who knew this is what we were fighting for? To be an exact replica of the breeders! If I had known that, I would have said, “No gracias. I want nothing to do with this fucked up Movement.” Mi amigo/My friend and I walk by that sports bar here in San Francisco and often it looks straight inside: Him and her. Also, the word “gay” is third, not first, in their keywords on their Y**p reviews. I’ve gotten the sense from the bar’s management that they are running from the word gay (to cater to the bigoted straights?), even though it’s known as a gay sports bar according to many of the commenters. The conservative male owner said in an interview, “I identify as gay.” Notice that he couldn’t just say, “I’m gay” as we did during the Movement. There was no “identifying” during the Movement. This bull shit is new too. I wonder how he will “identify” tomorrow? Saying “I identify” implies that one can randomly change one’s sexual orientation on a whim. Do people never think this shit through before they say it? And if one can “identity” as a certain sexual orientation one day and on another day “identify” as another sexual orientation, the far-right will love to hear that and shove that in our faces by saying: “We told you so!!!!!!! We told you being gay was a choice.” And at that point, they will launch a rabid campaign for queers to change their sexuality to straight and “identify as straight.” To the fake-jock bros: You’re either gay, bi or straight dudes per the sexual orientation you were born with. And the only time that San Francisco “gay” sports bar flies Rainbow Flags is on corporate “Pride, Inc.” weekend or that particular Sunday. The following day (Monday) those flags go back in the closet (with the owner?), not to be seen for another 364 days. Corporate sports flags fly outside that bar the rest of the year. Does the owner think the Rainbow Flag is “too gay” for a “macho” sports bar of wannabe macho fake-jocks who like to watch men playing with balls on television? (Even though again, apparently few guys watch the televisions.) Does the West Hollywood (WeHo) bar have any Rainbow Flags flying outside? I can take a guess since it’s the same owner: No. One complaint I read about the San Francisco bar is that the clientele is 99% white. Interesting. Someone wrote that the WeHo bar caters to the 1%. During the Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement, queers were into the Arts, music and culture. Most couldn’t care less about supporting or pretending to have an interest in wealthy corporate sports teams to “fit-in” and try to be a fucking jock. It should also be pointed out that historically jocks have been the assholes who have and still bully queer guys on sports fields, on playgrounds and in locker rooms and make “faggot” jokes, which I suspect are also heard in the locker rooms of corporate sports teams, perhaps on the same day that they have their “Gay Day.” I can hear it now (either whispered or spoken loudly): “Well the fags should be happy now. We had a fag day for them.” You don’t think that can’t happen? It’s odd that some queers would want to emulate such trash. Someone said that the guys in WeHo like to watch their Drag Queen shows. Well at least there’s still some culture down there for that art form. A Drag Queen show shown on the televisions at the bar in now-conservative San Francisco would likely generate a hostile response such as: “I thought this was a sports bars for ‘real men,” a he-man’s bar for REAL MEN into other (aryan?) jocks with big white dicks and who trim their pubes. Get those faggot Drag Queens off that television and now or we’re leaving! I’m absolutely serious about this. San Francisco has changed, for the worse. Someone in WeHo said that the queer “community” down there (although he used that revisionist history “lgbt” shit) is a close-knit community where “everybody knows each other.” Really? It’s the exact opposite of that up here in San Francisco. As I’ve written countless times now, what remnants remain of the former Gay Mecca are mostly as snotty as ice to each other. There’s no “close-knit community” up here at all of any sort. Most go out of their way to pretend to be straight with their tunnel-vision look, refusing to look at anyone. Then they sit at home and wonder why they’re lonely? It’s a little surprising that the owner of the obnoxious sports bar up here decided to open or take over a bar in WeHo because he owned a restaurant-bar across the street from the obnoxious bar for awhile. That bar is now closed. It was a failure. I remember up here when queers were heavily involved in the arts and music. Much of the San Francisco Symphony Chorus was queer when I was in the Symphony Chorus and we wore our SF Symphony Chorus t-shirts around The Castro. I haven’t seen anything like that or anything art-related in decades around The Castro. I suspect one would be subjected to disapproving looks or sneers if one wore a SF Symphony Chorus t-shirt in today’s Castro. The response would likely be from most: WTF? Why? Because today it’s all about conformity and everyone being alike. Wearing black and grey 365 days a year and being a fake-jock and being “straight acting” and “discreet” and “down low” and heteronormative and pretending to like chicks. As of this writing, 5 queers were murdered over the weekend (10 June 2019) as the hate from the far-right continues. I hope the morons around The Castro who told us that “Gay people can live anywhere; gay is now mainstream; there is no need for Gay Meccas” take note of these and many other murders of queers. In this case it was 3 trans and 2 queer boys. Any protests against these murders? Nope. No one seems to care. All they care about is their phone and being back in the closet and heteronormative. (Related: West Hollywood puts the Rainbow Flag back in the closet) Chau.
Pussy must not be all that hot. In straight sex videos that I and the people I’ve talked with have watched — whether it be home videos or professionally produced ones, the home videos are better (more real) but in all but one video that I’ve seen it took the guy forever and a day to cum. Anyone else ever noticed that? His dick must be completely raw before he cums. It took him up to the entire length of the video which was over 45 minutes. At the end, after he pulled out and started jacking off so he wouldn’t supposedly get her pregnant — even though there’s a chance she could get pregnant from his pre-cum — it still took him up to a couple of minutes to cum. Which begs the question: Is vagina really all that hot? If it were, guys would be cumming within a very short time. It wouldn’t take them up to nearly an hour, just as it doesn’t take a guy up to an hour to cum when he jacks off. When I talked with mi amigo/my friend about this (and he had sex with females before he came out of the closet) the first thing he said was, “She must have been very loose from being over-fucked. I’ve never had a tight pussy myself even, though I only had 2-3.” He continued, “As you know, pussy is over-marketed as part of society’s heteronormative Breeder/Straight Agenda, and most of it is lies. You could call it “The Lies about Pussy.”
And I would add that clearly the female anatomy was poorly designed by that Christian god fellow.
Part of our heteronormative society’s Breeder Brainwashing is to talk or rather brainwash guys into vagina, or to talk themselves into liking vagina, one guy encouraging another “You’ve got to try pussy bro, it’s totally awesome. It’s paradise.” This is so that they won’t think about or fathom any gay thoughts. This is still going on in 2019 and will be forever more, Amen.
Despite how breeder sex is extremely over-exaggerated and over-hyped with words such as “Pussy is amazing, awesome and paradise,” when you think about it, the opening to the vagina is completely in the wrong place. First, it’s too close to that smelly asshole. For breeder sex, the clitoris should be at a place where a guy’s dick automatically stimulates the clitoris when he’s inside the vagina. But that’s not the case at all. It’s as if females are built wrong. I suppose most people have never thought about that. That Christian god fellow whom we are told made peoplekind didn’t seem to think that through very well. “He” didn’t put the opening of the vagina directly at the clitoris so that the clit would automatically be stimulated when he’s fucking her. Instead, for some damn odd reason, that god fellow put the vagina way down at the bottom (why there?), an inch or less (depending upon the female) from her anus, which, again, is not near her clitoris. So consequently, with the female anatomy, the clit with some supposedly 8,000 nerve endings being the pleasure center of the vulva does not get stimulated at all when a guy is fucking her. Also, there are very few nerve endings inside the vagina. Therefore, despite any acting of erotic ecstasy on her part with the signature ubiquitous and perfunctory high-pitch annoying squeals that females are known to make when getting fucked, the woman is really left sexually unsatisfied while the guy is fucking her, if he or she is not masturbating her clit independently, and depending upon how accessible her clit is to begin with. Some guys never find it because it can be so hidden with the hood, so they just finger the hood. Related: No pleasure during female sex.
On another topic, I read a comment online from a guy. He wrote: My girlfriend, whom I love dearly, works at home and doesn’t take a shower every day. Previously, I enjoyed eating her pussy, but because of her lack of hygiene I really have to do some sniffing around without her knowing it because I’m very turned off by the smells around her vagina. It’s a mixture of vagina and anal smells. Not sure what to do about this, if anything, because I’m sure it would upset her if she were to read this. It’s just that I’m very hygienic, but she is not and it’s become a problem. (Related: My girlfriend has a stinky pussy).
A personal observation: I’ve watched a few straight sex videos produced in Russia. They were more of the homemade type. One thing I noticed is that none of the guys ate pussy. The girl sucked the guy’s dick and he played with her tits and fucked her, but that was the extent of it. The females in the videos seemed to have very loose pussies because, again, it took the guys forever to cum. Then I found this statement online: “Eating pussy is considered effeminate and sometimes gay in Russia.” I think that’s because the guy is considered being subservient to the girl when eating her pussy and he’s ingesting the female hormone estrogen. And that’s considered “gay” because he should be ingesting testosterone. So, perhaps that’s why these guys in the videos that I’ve seen didn’t eat pussy. But I specifically noticed that and wondered about it. If I find a Russian sex video where the guy does eat pussy, I’ll update this.
And part of Breeder Brainwashing is that a guy is supposed to love the smell of pussy because that makes him a “real man.” Also, per Breeder Brainwashing a “real man” is also supposed to be into any and all discharges from pussy, including menstrual period discharges. Mi amigo just said as I was reading this to him: “Now, we’re getting into the ultra gross.” But I’m not making this up. That’s what I’ve read from guys claiming that that’s what “real men” like. Here’s The Ultimate Color Guide to Vaginal Discharge if you’d like to read up on that. But, per Breeder Brainwashing, a “real man” does not want to try to get rid of any rank musky odors from pussy because of course that contradicts the concept of being a “real man.” But I’ll provide the link anyway to be as thorough as possible: 7 Tips for Getting Rid of Vaginal Odor. Related: Men Explain, in Great Detail, Why They Don’t Eat Pussy.
Mi amigo/My friend who started out with pussy before he came out of the closet, completely disagrees with today’s brainwashing hype about how wonderful pussy is. He says pussy was no big deal, a turn-off in fact, and he couldn’t stand the smell no matter how much she washed it. A smell of some rankness is always there. Also, he said: “She just lays there and does nothing usually except an occasional squeal.” He’s told me of how he and his guy friends when they were in their 20s and 30s were floating down a river on Inner Tubes. They made sure the females were in front of them (or down-wind) so that their menstrual blood would flow down-river and not into the guy’s Inner Tube. By the second day, he said the guys would have to stay up-wind from the females because it was a hot Summer week and the females were just wearing bathing suits. He also says that when he was in the US Army that the guys would use cans of whipped cream (the aerosol type), applying it in and on her pussy to tone-down the smell, if they had to eat pussy. At that time, he says that Black guys didn’t eat pussy. It was just the young white guys that did that. He also said that in those days that there was no him-tall-dominant/her-short-submissive with breeder couples. That they were pretty much the same height as most gay couples are today and always have been. He said that from his experience, because of a female’s emotional instability and where she acts like an emotional train wreck too much of the time, he found a female to be the worst travel companion one could have.
One might think that through evolution that the female sexual plumbing might have been “corrected” or redesigned? Although I don’t know how that might happen, but clearly it’s designed incorrectly despite all the drama and hype about how pussy is the best thing since the Earth was created, or at least that’s the impression one gets.
Also, there are some guys who claim to like to eat pussy when she’s having her period, so they’re into blood. Here are images of that.
Those of the gay conversion crowd who claim “I really have no problem with gays” but who write very anti-gay stuff state that one of the many problems with “gay sex” is that he could never eat out a guy’s ass because “that is where he poops.” As if all gay guys are into eating ass, which of course they’re not. This begs the question whether he’s really ever been with a woman as he claims when often the girl’s asshole is right at the pussy (there’s an image of that at that link) and some guys eat pussy in one stroke upward of the tongue starting where? At her asshole. Straight and bi guys are into eating a woman’s asshole, so eating asshole is not just “gay sex.” Then back to her period, there are guys who brag about how they like to fuck their girl during her period. Here’s an image of that.
My straight neighbour alerted me to something else. He said that guys in their comments under pussy-eating videos like to talk about “that sweet cream” coming out of her pussy when the guy eats it. My neighbour said, “it ain’t always ‘sweet cream.’ What the guy is really eating is a yeast infection and the guy can’t tell the difference. Yuck. Here’s an image of that. Here are other random images of yeast infections. I asked him: Do you call that substance/mucous “sweet cream.” He said: As you would say, it’s marketing language. There’s nothing sweet about the taste of mucous. It often tastes tangy, salty or fishy or has some other flavour. But “sweet cream” is not one of them! I think that pretty much covers it.
Mi amigo says: Maybe the pussy needs to be made even more stinky — although he says he doesn’t know how it could be any stinkier — to keep guys away considering we really don’t need any more babies to be pumped out since the world is already overpopulated. Very true.
File this under:
-The Century of Insanity.
–Subcategory: Going back in the closet with gay shame.
I saw Brett Chukerman the other day on HSN2 as I was channel surfing. I noticed him because my gaydar went off. In the ad I saw on the network for him, he looked like he and his female programme co-host were trying to be a breeder couple. Another gay guy with a female, I wonder? Heteronormative.
He looked familiar to me, but I couldn’t place him. Researching him I see he had done quite a bit of gay porn which — from reading some of HSN’s forum — the female viewers got riled up about when he was hired years ago. They said Brett hadn’t been properly “vetted” by HSN to have such a “checkered past.” (roll eyes) Conservative prudish (anti-gay?) females. Then on the show he was hosting later on, I saw a large wedding ring on his left hand “breeder” finger and thought wtf? Another gay guy married to a female here in the Century of Insanity and having gone back in the closet to “Assimilate with the breeders?” (Related: Why gay guys should wear their wedding rings on their right hand). I thought to myself: Oh here we go again with yet another gay guy who desperately wants to be a clone of the straights. Sigh. Another heteronormative gay guy? Seems so. Running from the word gay? Uh huh. People like him make me turn the channel because I see someone who is not fully comfortable with himself as a gay guy. Sad.
Researching him I found this:
Brett Chuckerman [sic] attended Highland Park High School… I was in the theater department with him. Never saw him engage in any explicitly gay activity, but he was overtly effeminate. He seems to be wearing a “mustache” now because he so badly wants mainstream acceptance, but back in the day it seemed pretty obvious that he was certainly homosexual.
I wasn’t at all surprised to find that he was acting in “gay” movies a handful of years later. I WAS however surprised to hear that he claims not to be gay… lol. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Yes, he is. He and his partner Todd W Anthony have been together a while, and they have a son. They live in Palm Harbor, Florida.
[Source: Is Brett Chuckerman Gay in Real Life?]
Then I found this bit of information where he and his boyfriend bought property in St Petersburg as well as this information: Here’s a picture of Brett’s boyfriend/partner that he bought the house with where they live. But please don’t think they’re gay, for heaven’s sake! They wouldn’t stand for that!
(Related: It already feels like we’re back where we started (circa 1970s) as well as this: The Tombstone on the Grave of the US Gay Community reads:).
Closet cases are fucking annoying to me, and then there’s the stress of being in the closet and living a lie. Trying to be somebody you’re not.
Perhaps Brett would say:
I’m married to my boyfriend and we have a son (translation: I’m married with children and we want to be traditionally heteronormative). I’m not gay. lol. (roll eyes) Please don’t call me that dreaded word “gay.”
I see someone who has some problems with his sexuality. Considering this, it’s odd he started out in gay porn. Sounds like the problems may have cropped up since then. Some people do flip out the moment they become a parent. Parenting changes some people into conservatives prudes overnight. I’ve seen that happen. The moment they become a parent, they start whining about the same behaviour they themselves engaged in earlier in their lives when they called themselves “a liberal” or “a progressive.”
Here in the Century of Insanity, I guess two gay guys married to each other are now considered a “straight” couple, eh? Isn’t “Gay Assimilation” wonderful? It’s given some gay guys with their gay shame an excuse to go back in the fucking closet by running from the word gay and living the life of a traditional breeder couple. As I’ve asked many times: This is what The Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement fought for for decades, is it? Makes The Movement feel like it was a complete waste of time frankly. (Related: It already feels like we’re back where we started (circa 1970s)).
You know, some gay guys are quite good-looking on the outside but it’s their insides (their personality) that’s quite fucked up and needs work so that it matches their model-polished veneer exterior. I dated a few guys like that over the years, and they were some of the most fucked-up-in-the-head people from a personality standpoint that I’d ever met. A friend of mine met one of these guys when he was with me for a short time. My friend later told me, “He’s good looking.” I said: ‘Well yeah, on the outside. It’s all cosmetic. But we won’t talk about the inside,’ and I knew things would not work out between us because of that. These guys spend all this time on their façade instead of working to make themselves a better, and more well-adjusted person comfortable with themselves and the sexuality they were born with.
To those gay guys who have a boyfriend/partner and a son and say they’re not gay? Someone needs to see a credible psychotherapist ASAP. Of course they won’t do that because they’re quite comfortable with being in the closet and living a lie and in some cases damaging the lives of other people.
As for Brett’s past, he seems to have been comfortable with his gay sexuality in gay porn series. But as he aged and found a boyfriend and got “the house” and “the kid” he seems to now be running from the word gay. Sad really. Also, to be the ultimate heteronormative and to be as identical to the breeders as possible, I saw a picture of Brett reading a book to his — apparently adopted? — little son but his boyfriend was not shown in the picture nor was any female (also known as “the wife” who might have been shown to give the impression he’s married to a woman). The need to have children goes right along with the traditional conservative institution of marriage. It’s part of society’s Breeder Brainwashing, which many gay couples have adopted as well as they ultimately conform to be as much like the breeders as possible. I never knew that was one of the goals of our proudly-radical movement. I thought we had higher standards than adopting and conforming to traditionally-conservative institutions. Ugh.
Update: I saw on HSN’s FB page an announcement that said that Brett’s son, Jack, was born “yesterday afternoon” (this was back in December of 2013). It didn’t say that Brett and his partner’s son was born. Of course if they were a breeder couple it would have said, “He and his wife welcomed their new son yesterday afternoon…” Or, “his wife delivered a healthy baby boy yesterday afternoon.” I don’t know who is being more closeted, Brett and his boyfriend or HSN? Instead it said, from their page: “Welcome Jack and congratulations Brett Chukerman and family! Here he is!! Our adorable son Jack was born yesterday afternoon and is an angel! Everyone is healthy and we are thrilled!” “Everyone” is healthy? Who exactly is “everyone?” Don’t you just love the closeted code language? Nothing about “the mother”/(surrogate mother?) or any female. Looks like he and his boyfriend have expanded their family since then
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Why I no longer write about Queer topics, and why am I now using the word “Queer?” That’s because there’s no hierarchy or politics involved in the word “Queer” as opposed to the hierarchy of that “LGBT” nonsense that’s saturated all over the internet. Also, Queers (and the word Queer) make breeders nervous and we enjoy every minute of it. (smile)
Then there are the fake bi guys:
Are most bi guys bi? No, they think “bi” makes them come off as more “straight,” macho and masculine as they run from the word gay. (I’m not talking about the genuine bi guys; I’m talking about the thousands of frauds pretending to be bi when they’re really gay and have zero interest in females.
Ashamed to be Gay
Kissing Tim Poster
These two are hot.
This “Kissing Tim” poster
reminds me of the
“Castro Clone look.”
Anyone remember that look?
You never see that now in
today’s conservative, sanitised
and Disneyfied Castro,
which has been lost to the
straights. From what mi amigo
heard at his gym, guys are required
to now keep their shirts on so as not
to show any skin. (roll eyes)
This article revisited: El 10 de junio de 2014/10 June 2014. In these increasingly conservative days, it seems that more and more gay guys are ashamed of their gay sexuality. How sad. We really are heading backwards in many ways despite some advances. Mi amigo said I could have titled this article, “Ashamed to be Gay” and that might be a more accurate title. I agree. He and I certainly noticed this increasing “Bi Fad” on the site I call ClosetList for awhile where most gay guys don’t say they’re gay but rather many if not most gay guys seemed ashamed of their sexuality by the language they use and the way they write their personal sex ads. They say they’re bi, even though most of them are likely gay based on the experience of mi amigo (see the article below). I did a search on ClosetList in its last days when that was around for sex personals to see how many self-identifying bi guys there were posting under the gay “Men Seeking Men” category in the San Francisco Bay Area as opposed to self-identifying gay guys. I did my search based on the keywords in guy’s ads. Here are the results as of this writing:
Ads with the word “bi”: 977
Ads with the word “gay”: 368
Ads with the word “straight”: 520
As you can see, the word gay has the least number of ads under the gay section, Men Seeking Men. How odd. Doesn’t that strike you as a bit strange?
(What’s Wrong With Gay Dick?) That’s followed by guys claiming to be “straight” when they are really bisexual or they are gay guys (and most pretending to be bi) looking for “straight” guys. There’s this craze for sucking “straight” dick with some gay guys. (My Question: How is “straight” dick different than any other dick?) I think one of the newest and most shallow fads is to call yourself something that you’re not. Call yourself “bi.” I think more and more muchachos are using the word “bi” because everybody else is using it in their ad so follow the sheeple. Just like using the ubiquitous word “discreet,” to fit in and to appear more “straight.” Because we all know how bad and terrible it is to be gay. Gay is bad. It’s bad, it’s bad. [Full-blown sarcasm intended]. “Gay is bad” is unfortunately the impression I get from reading many if not most of those ads on ClosetList. As some states (including California) now have same-gender marriage legal how ironic that it’s now bad to be gay in so many guy’s minds. So let’s all call ourselves “bi” even though many/most of us aren’t bi. Just say we are, because a guy is closer to being “straight” if he says he’s bi, seems to be the thinking. We have some fucked up in the head closet case gay people here in San Francisco (of all places!) and the Bay Area based on these ads on ClosetList. I didn’t realise there were that many (sexually) fucked up people out there, at least here. It’s very strange. As the gay populace becomes more and more conservative, it’s back in the closet time or call yourself bi. And pretend to be a “straight” (obnoxious) jock, rather than saying gym-toned or athletic. I remember after I came out decades ago, my many amigos and I didn’t go through all of this gay shame nonsense. We had none of that. Not one of us. But today, Gay Shame/Gay Discreet is happening in the former Gay Mecca known as San Francisco and the Bay Area. This is also happening in other US cities from reading those personal ads. There has got to be something in the water.
I ran into mi amigo/my friend a couple of days ago and the timing was good because I wanted to ask him his opinion about something: Are most bi guys bi? Here’s what he told me:
He’s a Queer boy and not bi (I already knew that). But when he does non-paid phone sex on his own—he’s worked in the phone sex industry—he told me that consistently when he talks with a guy who says “I’m bi” that the guy hangs up on him whenever mi amigo tries to talk with him about chicks and pussy. The guys who claim to be bi that he has on the phone consistently only want to talk about sex with guys (jacking off, sucking dick and fucking). He said it’s very rare to talk with a bi guy about fucking or eating pussy because the bi guys he’s talked with show no interest in that at all on the phone and hang up on him. The call can start out initially about chicks or “banging some girl” but then quickly goes to guys and if mi amigo tries to go back to chicks and to talk about pussy, that’s when the hang up occurs and the call ends. The so-called “bi” guy hangs up consistently. Mi amigo says he tells phone sex guys that he’s bi but he really isn’t. He says that is not uncommon. He’s Queer and has never had sex with a female and has no interest in females. I asked him: Could you have sex with a female? He said: Oh I suppose I could but my sexual orientation is Queer so that’s where my sexual feelings are the stronger. I could choose to have sex with a female and that would fall under the less-strong/weaker “sexual preference” category, but I wouldn’t necessarily enjoy it because I’m not into females and he said, “I’m a vegetarian and I don’t eat or like fish.” He continued: I would just be going through the motions if I were to have sex with a female. Many hetero guys are thinking about guys when they’re fucking their girlfriends or wives. (That’s true.) All that makes sense to me.
He said he reads CL ads regularly and he too has seen all of the supposed “bi guys” on CL (the site I’ve written some articles about). I said, do you think most of them are bi? He said: well they’re clearly looking for guys in their ads because they are on the “men for men” category—and often the “girlfriend is away or out of town”—so some of them could be bi or they are calling themselves “bi” as code for butch, masculine and that obnoxious “straight-acting” heteronormative language that some closet-case gay guys use. I think “bi” is just a fantasy for many guys who are not really bi, he said.
He continued: Years ago when I was doing phone sex I talked many times with a guy on the East Coast (of the US/los Estados Unidos/The Cesspool) who was bi and all we talked about was fucking and eating pussy. We talked many times on a phone sex line. He was a hot guy to talk with. Then years later, I had one other guy who claimed to be hetero and he was married to a female, but he was really bi (she didn’t know he’s bi) in the true sense of the word. After months of talking with him in phone sex conversations about dick and pussy we were getting too close and I had to cut it off because I sensed he was trying to become my boyfriend. But since then, whenever I’ve tried to replicate a conversation with another guy who claims to be bi, it hasn’t worked since the guy only wants to talk about dick. My new strategy is that when a guy tells me he’s bi and if I want to keep him on the phone because I like his voice and how he sounds, I make a point of not talking about pussy or chicks at all and that works well. They don’t hang up on me when I avoid talking about chicks.
So I then asked him since we were in San Francisco’s Castro: As the Castro becomes more and more “straight,” do you see GLBTQs going back in the closet in order to “fit in” and “be discreet?” (and that word “discreet” is saturated throughout CL ads).
His response: I’ve noticed the hetero couples walking by us as we’ve been standing here with their in-your-face we’re straight “look” (for lack of a better word). I hope GLBTQs don’t go back in the closet but I could see that happening. I think it’s already happening. Or will gay guys start “dating girls” and fucking pussy because they think that’s the “in” thing to do now and to fit in with the herd? Will they think: Gay is out and hetero is in so let me “turn hetero” (as if that’s fucking possible!). He continued: To that I say, “Fucking idiots and fucked up in the head.” They could do that (“turn hetero” so to speak) but they would only be back to living in the closet and living a lie and pretending to be something they’re not—what exactly was the former Gay Rights Movement for and about anyway?!—since their sexual orientation is gay. They could do that, but I’m seeing the same things you’re seeing. I’m seeing a guy hooked up with a female walking down Castro hand-in-hand and he looks like a Queer boy to me. (Yes, I’ve written about that too). He continued: Like you say, it’s a weird time in the US and in San Francisco. What is this place turning into? He said: I call it a collapse of our society and for those paying attention there are many indicators of that happening right before us. (He’s correct).
DISCREET is the opposite of “Out and Proud.”
Some readers have asked me via e-mail: Why are you no longer writing about Queer topics? Well, that’s because I don’t see any reason to. Why should I bother? I’ve written about Queer topics for years and it didn’t do any good. Nothing changed for the positive. There’s nothing else to say about it. Only a few people seem to care in the big scheme of things. As with some other topics I used to write about, I seem to be “fighting an uphill battle” or “a lost cause.” Several examples that come to mind explaining this and some of which overlap: I’ve become disgusted with what the Queer community has become and turned into. Today, they are mostly DISCREET (translation: closeted), conservative, pro-corporatist, pro-Establishment, DISCREET, mainstream, DISCREET, non-alternative, DISCREET, non-proudly radical, sanitised, DISCREET, shallow sheeple trying to emulate the boring (and often conservative) mainstream breeders. Queers today are the DISCREET opposite of who and what they were during the decades of the Gay and Lesbian Rights’ Movement.
1. Monitoring television programming, one would think that the entire world consists of breeders. One gets the impression there’s not one openly Queer person in el mundo/the world, other than that heteronormative, corporatist, pro-Establishment, Obamabot Ellen daily promoting silly, dumbed-down and “stupid-is-in” and making millions doing so. She didn’t care how many immigrants the Deporter-in-Chief had deported or how many breeders and Queers Mr Nobel Peace Prize had droned or killed in other parts of the world in his 8 wars as she gushed over him at every opportunity? Or is she oblivious to all that? And I know Anderson Cooper is an openly-Queer boy, but I’m making a point here. Most of the (closeted) Queer people before network cameras pretend to be breeders. They refuse to come out of the closet and announce that they’re Queer. Despite some advances that have been made for Queers over the decades, those advances are not reflected in 99.9% of corporate network television programming. All the programming on the español language networks I monitor is breeder-based. I am so tired of seeing him fawning over her, him making out with her, him holding needy-her’s hand, him holding her chin, him playing with her hair, her running over to him for more attention with one foot up in the back (she’s perched on one foot) desperate for attention, and him doing other things with her, when it’s more than obvious to me and my reliable Queerdar that “him” is really a closeted Queer boy. Such as the breeder-based dating programme that started on TV Azteca recently in the afternoons. According to my Queerdar, I’ve seen one closet case Queer boy after the other on there wanting to date a female. (roll eyes). Is this stuff for real or is staged just to create a programme? Do they ever have real dates? I don’t know. Mi amigo/My Queer friend says the same about the closet cases on television. In all of the Latino/Hispano/mexicano community, I only know of TWO Queer boys that are out of the closet. Just TWO. That’s it. Those two are Ricky Martín (Enrique Martín Morales) and Christian Chávez (José Christian Chávez Garza). All the others are closet cases despite the public being fed the wishful-thinking lie that “gay is now mainstream.” Yeah sure it is. That’s why I constantly read anti-Queer comments on political message forums and YouTube videos and everywhere else. “Gay is so mainstream” that’s why Queers are saturated all over my television. NOT!
I don’t watch the English-language networks but I would guess that they’re no different. I suspect 99% of the programming on those networks is breeder-based too. In the last few months I’ve read about one or two of those corporate networks planning to do a “gay programme” or bring back one they did in the past. Then some shallow, corporatist Queer organisation jumped up and down in celebration about this. Get. A. Grip. As some of us see it, it’s nothing but a “flash in the pan” in the big scheme of things and nothing to get excited about. Too often with these “gay programmes,” or when they feature a person who is supposedly Queer, they merely show stereotypical Queer guys and lesbians to continue outdated stereotypes. I’ll get exited when corporate networks changed their programming to where a large segment of their programming is Queer-based. I’m not holding my breathe for that to happen. But these little “token” gay programmes are meaningless in the big scheme of things as far as some of us are concerned.
2. 99.9% of the public — including Queers — use that cookie-cutter “LGBT” acronym nonsense because that’s what they see all over the internet. Even the anti-Queer far-right use “LGBT.” Some of us can’t stand the “LGBT” nonsense for several reasons:
1) to begin with, it leaves out Queers entirely…whatever nutball dreamed it up was prejudice against Queers.
2) “LGBT” is the hijacking of the original Gay and Lesbian Rights’ Movement by lesbians when they were not the dominant group of the moment so why are they getting “top-billing?” and
3) some people are asking: “What’s wrong with you gay guys, why are you giving “top billing” to lesbians? Why are you allowing that when you did most of the work during the Gay and Lesbian Rights’ Movement? Agreed. Yes, I fail to understand why lesbians get top billing. That makes no sense to me. I’ve read that the “L” was put first by one of those corporatist gay media organisations because lesbians were feeling neglected. (roll eyes) Oh the poor things. Well if their ass had done more during the Gay and Lesbian Movement they wouldn’t feel neglected. They deserve what they get, which is second billing as in GLBTQ, if one must use any acronym. That’s the way it should be written: GLBTQ. But personally, I’m starting to use the word Queer instead of any letters since this topic and acronyms feel like a lost cause.
3. The gay community to me and other Queers now seems dead and closeted. As I write in the article below, they’ve gone from proudly-radical and “out and proud” to proudly discreet which means either you’re closeted and/or cheating on somebody (or both). Looking at personal sex ads (on the site I call ClosetList), most gay guys today are calling themselves “bi” when they’re really gay. They think that “bi” makes them sound more like a breeder, more masculine, manly and macho even though they have no interest at all in pussy or in females but in today’s world lying and deception are in especially in personal sex ads where hardly anything is real about those. Calling oneself “bi” when one is really gay is a form of internalised homophobia because one is ashamed of the word “gay.” Didn’t most Queers work through this years ago during the decades of the Gay and Lesbian Rights’ Movement? Apparently not! And some of us see a major rise in internalised homophobia in the Queer commmunity today. It’s really pathetic what the Queer community has turned into. Mi amigo/My friend said the other day: “I get the impression that most Queer people are back in the closet.” That’s the impression I get too in the former Gay Mecca of San Francisco.
4. Just like with the breeders, from what we’re seeing most Queers today are wearing all-black or black and gray. What happened to the pretty Rainbow Flag colours, Queer boys? Today, it seems that most Queers consider the Rainbow Flag “too gay.” Yet another example of what I mean by going back in the closet with internalised homophobia. It’s as if Queers consider wearing colour an indicator that they’re Queer rather than a breeder and we can’t have that! No, the breeders are wearing all-black and/or black and gray and looking like white nationalists so the conformist Queers think they must do the same in order to “fit in” and “assimilate” with the breeders. Translation: Going back in the closet. Ugh.
5. In this new tech-zombie San Francisco, mi amigo (a Queer boy) has told me repeatedly about how he has made the mistake of fleetingly glancing at another guy on the sidewalk (no one cruises anyone anymore) — who apparently turns out to be a breeder — and the guy gives mi amigo a very disapproving, snarling angry look as if he’s about to say, “don’t you look at me you faggot.” Sigh. This anti-Queer behaviour did not happen in the San Francisco of the Gay Mecca. This has happened in the new Breeder Mecca and here which has taken over and replaced the former Gay Mecca. I should point out that people who are secure with themselves and their sexuality would not respond the way these breeder basura respond just because another guy happened to fleetingly look at them. Los pendejos.
So in conclusion, to me this all seems like an uphill battle and I’m tired of it and tired of wasting my time writing about it. All I see are breeder people (making out), or Queers (both guys and females) trying to pretend to be breeders and heteronormative so that no one will possibly think that they are Queer because we know how awful that is, right? (More internalised homophobia.) In San Francisco’s Castro, the former gay mecca, I now do a double-take when I see two guys kissing or making out because it is now so rare to see that. I even stop to watch briefly and appreciate them because it’s such a rare sight to see now here in The Breeder Mecca full of fleets of baby strollers. (Have these breeders never heard of birth control of any kind?) These days I expect to see breeders kissing or making out or nearly uncontrollably having sex on the sidewalk (as if they just met) in The Castro. The Castro has been ruined. The Castro today is nothing like it was when I moved here during the height of the Gay Mecca days. Get this: Can you believe that a group of Queers a year or so ago started a project to Queer The Castro? It hasn’t worked, but that’s how bad it’s gotten here with prudish and in some cases anti-Queer breeders taking over The Castro. It used to be that Queer boys and Queer couples walked by my window talking. Now it’s breeders with loud and/or screaming children walking by my window talking. And it seems to be a requirement with breeders that he has to be 3-4 feet taller than her — from my research that’s her requirement — and she has to be submissive to him as if she’s living in the Victorian era where females are supposed to be submissive and subservient to guys (in order to get his attention that needy and high-maintenance her constantly demands from him).
Upon reflection, it seems that Queers will have to have their rights eroded or removed completely to get them out of the closet again and off their electronic leashes and to return to the vigilance and activism of the decades of the former Gay and Lesbian Rights’ Movement. But from what I see of the apathetic and closeted Queer community today, I’m not holding my breathe that any of that is about to happen anytime soon. Because the attitude of most Queers today seems to be, “I’m like whatever” and “Where’s my phone?” Chau.—el barrio rosa
Do gay male couples exist?
Do gay male couples exist? Not from observing the US corporate media and advertising. This morning mi amigo/my friend was on some site, a political news site, I think. I glanced at his PC screen and there was this big ad image of a “him and her” couple in a fawning over each other position. We’ve seen images like that countless times. Too many times. I’m sick of seeing breeders shoving their sexuality in my face (a complaint they themselves made about Queers some years ago, but of course it’s perfectly okay when breeders do it; their hypocrisy is noted). But an image of a gay male couple in the same position? Never. The image I’m referring to was intended to display Mr and Ms Breeder Couple. The subliminal message of the image: “You must be straight and a breeder to be considered ‘normal’.” I asked mi amigo: Well it’s good that they showed us a gay male couple. Where are they? He said: I never see that anywhere. I said: Exactly. Because it’s as if we don’t exist in the corporate media and advertising and it’s also as if gay guys don’t exist. When they show a Queer couple it’s always two women. It’s always a lesbian couple because lesbians are considered “more acceptable” to the prejudiced and bigoted breeders in our society who have less of a problem seeing two women holding hands, kissing and fawning over each other because the thinking is: “That’s what girls do.” (roll eyes) Earlier in the morning I was researching something gay related — I forget what it was now — and the only images this gay site showed were that of two women. Lesbian couples. No gay male couples exist in their world either? I clicked off. I’ve had it up to here with this shit. I’d go so far to say that since gay marriage became legal in the US, that there’s been this overdrive push to heavily promote breeder/straight sexuality and breeder couples as a backlash to gay marriage, which frankly I rarely hear anything about anymore. Also, when they show gay guys on television, they’re made out to be straight — unless it’s a gay guy to be made fun of — no matter how much one’s gaydar goes off telling one that the guy is obviously gay. I’m thinking of a certain home shopping network specifically. These guys I’m talking about deliberately wear their wedding ring on their “breeder finger” (left hand) to make the audience think they’re straight, rather than on their right-hand fourth finger. (Related: Gay Wedding Ring Deception and Why gay guys should wear their wedding rings on their right hand). On the corporate media and advertising, I also see an excess of images of “him and her” and the “him” is a closeted gay guy — according to my very reliable gaydar — and he’s posing with “her” and of course they have a child. Gotta have a child (or a whole brood of them) as a closeted gay guy to prove that you’re really straight/a breeder. But if you were to say something to Mr Closet Case “him” about it, the claws would come out in defensiveness as he lives in that unhealthy closet here in 2019. But again, a gay male couple in advertising? No where to be found. It’s good that we’ve made so much progress, isn’t it? [sarcasm intended] Only lesbian couples are shown and considered “acceptable.” (Related: Gay Guys are not Equal). Is that what that revisionist history “LGBT” nonsense is about where lesbians get first-billing with the “L” being first in “LGBT?” When the bitches didn’t do most of the work of the Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement and merely rode on the coattails of the Movement and hard work that was really led by gay guys and trans individuals? Has the “L” being first made “lesbians acceptable” even though the rest of us aren’t? If so, note to gay guys: Dudes/Gay boys, we could be the group considered “acceptable” if gay guys hadn’t allowed lesbians to hijack our Movement by moving their big bull dyke asses to first place and hiding gay guys in second place with that conformist “LGBT” lie/revisionist history nonsense that one sees spammed all over the internet. Just because they owned a hog doesn’t mean they had the right to take over our now-dead Movement. Ugh. Chau.—el barrio rosa
“This New City sucks!”
Well, when the neighbourhood (The Castro) began to slowly change I was very slow to talk about it. Was this a temporary change? If not, why even mention it? I had always talked very positively about San Francisco, the City I loved. I’d always had mixed feelings about The Castro (now the former Gay Mecca) because I didn’t always feel welcomed there even as a gay guy. It was too cliquish and conformist. I didn’t fit in. I remember the night standing in Harvey Milk Plaza that I saw something I’d never seen there before: A straight couple making out and kissing under the big Rainbow Flag. Seeing that stunned me, and I’m not easily stunned, shocked or surprised by much. But I’d never seen that in the Plaza or in The Castro ever. Up until then, the breeders didn’t flaunt their sexuality in our faces in — what was turning out to be — the dying Gay Mecca. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. I asked mi amigo/my friend who was with me at the time: Why do they have to make out here? If I did that in their neighbourhood — even somewhere else in San Francisco — I’d likely here, “Can you take that back to the Castro? Get out of here! We don’t like that here (with a softly spoken: Faggots).” As it turned out, that first straight kiss I saw in the Plaza was the beginning of what we now see today: A Breeder Mecca and no longer a Gay Mecca. The conservatives around here couldn’t be happier, although you wouldn’t know that to look at their sour faces today. They’ve always wanted this, except it’s really hurt their business and backfired on them because there’s now much less foot traffic. There are so many closed stores now in The Castro. At night it doesn’t feel like a safe or welcoming place to be. They deserve what they get. And these new residents: Ugh. I don’t know where these snotty trash moved here from, but, they have no personality at all or a personality resembling cold cement. Snotty fucks best describes 99% of them. I think part of it is their ageism: They give some of us older guys the nastiest and disapproving looks even though we only fleetingly glance at them without them seeing us do that. On weekends around here, it’s a parade of young, white him-tall/her-short breeder couples. Streams of them. The straights are still continuing to pour in here from somewhere. Where are they coming from and why? That’s another thing we don’t understand. San Francisco is now the most expensive City in the US, so why would breeders want to move to the most expensive place in the country? To show off their wealth or what? The Bay Area is now dubbed “Billionaire Bay” and there are only so many wealthy people. Apparently they’re still falling for that “San Francisco is the city of innovation” myth since we are now the Tech Capital giving corporate welfare through tax breaks to predatory and parasitic millionaire/billionaire-owned tech companies and their seemingly-lobotomised ageist and sexist techies. Most of these guys (these new residents) try to look like hard-assed jocks, especially in the gym according to mi amigo/my friend. Some of them are homophobic yet deliberately moved here, and the female he’s with usually looks as if she has an eating disorder (anorexic-looking). And of course the needy and self-absorbed females with these Millennial guys always need his constant attention, his petting, required hand-holding, stopping every block to make out with her to re-assure her that he still loves needy and insecure her. jesus fucking christ, who has the patience for all of the shit that females require? Gay male couples are nothing like these breeders. The gay male couples seem more mature and secure with themselves. Some of us gay guys don’t go out much on the weekend now to avoid being annoyed with breeder sexuality everywhere we look. A gay guy in my apartment building recently told me that he avoids The Castro “gay” bars because there are too many straight females in them now. When most people around here talk about this change to The City and Castro they talk in code. They never come right out and say what I’m writing here because it’s as if they don’t want to offend the breeders. Well frankly, I don’t give a fuck whether I offend them or not. I’ve had it up to here with them. I know that things change (usually for the worse) and that cities change. But this change has been so extreme and drastic. Mi amigo/My friend heard two gay guys (he was able to find two gay guys at his mostly breeder gym) and one said to the other: “This new city sucks!” The other guy said, “No, they don’t.” Meaning these new residents don’t suck dick. They’re above that and too entitled and self-absorbed and expect to be “serviced.” Mi amigo was up on Twin Peaks the other day. It was nearly all breeders up there and many were making out of course. That’s required, you know. A Breeder couple = you must make out on Twin Peaks or at Ocean Beach. That’s because the corporate media have so brainwashed breeders that they must make out when looking out at any view whether it be the view from Twin Peaks or the view from Ocean Beach. When I was riding my bike up to Twin Peaks on a regular basis I constantly saw “him and her” up there making out. First it starts out with her needing to be held and leaning her head on his chest while looking at the view. Then he puts his arm around her to protect her….from what? Then she gazes up into his eyes with her limpid eyes. He looks down at her holding her chin and then comes the first beso/kiss. I think they’re pretty much all first dates that go up there. They look out at the view as if praying for their happiness as a (dysfunctional) breeder couple by looking at the view of the Bay Area. Note to breeder couples: Your happiness ain’t based on or going to come from some view. Your happiness, if you have any, will come from within. But I saw this nonsense constantly when I was up there. I didn’t see any gay couples do this shit. They knew better. And now here in 2019, if the one gay male couple mi amigo saw up there had started making out there would likely have been howls of, “You guys stop that! Take that down to The Castro.” At which point the gay guys would have had every right to respond to the homophobic bigots by saying, “Why should we take our making out down to The Castro? It’s not welcomed down there either anymore. Haven’t you noticed? And why the fuck don’t you take your sucking face which we don’t care to see either over to the Marina or North Beach (traditionally straight areas of San Francisco)? We’ve heard several longtime local residents mention that they have considered leaving San Francisco because they do not like this New City or The Castro — they say that The Castro has been ruined (which it has), there’s now no culture or art there, there is no Queer activism now (that’s dead) and they can’t stand the people there — but these local residents always run into the #1 snag: Where to go where it won’t be worse? So they say they’re staying here and putting up with it. The same here. (Related: Queering The Castro.)
San Francisco used to be a very Bohemian, welcoming, nonjudgmental City that welcomed the outcast, welcomed the nonconformist, welcomed the alternative and people who were not accepted anywhere else for various reasons. Not any more. This New City of conformist snotty Millennials who have moved here in droves have completely erased the Old City. Again, I don’t know where these snots came from but they are some of the most unfriendly, culture-less, seemingly-lobotomised and judgmental people one will find anywhere if one does not look exactly like them. And they’re usually wearing drab and depressed-looking all-black or black and grey clothing as if they’re part of some cult. They also seem to have been born without vocal chords and were never taught (or rejected) good manners and politeness. They think everyone owes them the world; they think they are very special and self-entitled. When I researched them awhile back, I read that their “baby boomer” parents brainwashed them with this thinking that they are very special people and deserve the best, no matter how fucking stupid they act. They have ruined this City with their “Conform! Conform! Obey” way of thinking. Most of them are straight or pretend to be (closet cases) with some homophobia. One sees very few gay male couples among the Millennials, and on the odd occasion that you do, they’re just as fucking snotty and unfriendly as all the others. They refuse to look at anyone who is older as if brainwashed with ageism. There’s no sense or feel of “community” at all now. That’s why some long time San Franciscans have been heard saying, “This New City sucks!”
“Assimilated” really means back in the closet (US)
And the closet cases among us do try so hard to convince themselves and the public that they’re straight. After a minute of research on this guy I saw on television, my search engine brought up a profile that read: “Husband, dad, ….” That’s the first thing on the guy’s mind to tell everyone that he’s a husband and dad, or a breeder? That seemed irrelevant to the site I was on. Of course anyone coming to this page would likely know that a “husband and dad” can also apply to a gay guy, but that’s not at all the intent here. Since most people wouldn’t even remember that gay marriage exists, this guy and thousands just like him want people to think he’s straight. He may have a wife and kids but that doesn’t make him straight. He’s still a closet case. And he too wears his wedding ring on the “breeder finger.” But even the lamest Gaydar(TM) can tell that this guy is Queer/Gay. I told mi amigo/my friend about this and he said, “But don’t you know? Gay is out, straight is in. Everyone is supposed to be straight now.” He wasn’t joking. That indeed does seem to be the way it is now including here in San Francisco. I can’t remember the last time I heard the word “gay” spoken in The Castro, the former Gay Mecca, or anywhere here! It’s as though the breeders have hijacked the Rainbow Flag. I’m serious….”the gays” certainly don’t seem to have much interest in it these days. In fact, they’ve run from it. (Related: The Rainbow Flag is now “too gay?”). And in some comment sections, people can’t even use the words “gay” or “Queer.” Instead, they write, “I didn’t know he was like that.” “Like that?” That’s language right out of the 1940-50s, an era we’re quickly racing back towards in case one hasn’t noticed.
It’s essentially back in the closet
I was talking with some amigos of mine. We were talking about how San Francisco has changed, for the worse. They said, “Have you noticed how the gay guys are trying to look like straight guys and how the straight guys are trying to look like gay guys, for some damn reason? Yes, I’ve noticed that. The problem with this is that you don’t know who is straight and who is gay because the gay guys give no sign or indication that they’re gay. Mi amigo/My friends says that’s exactly the way it is at his gym. It’s like the gay guys have gone back in the closet, and nobody looks at anyone, and is even afraid to. Look at the wrong guy and watch out! And you don’t dare look at any of these guys in any cruising way because you’ll get this nasty, chip on both shoulders look from the guy as if he’s saying: “Don’t look at me, you faggot.” Sigh. My friends were telling me that they’ve quickly looked at some of these guys and felt threatened for their safety — the opposite of the way it used to be around here — as if they were looking at the wrong guy at the wrong time. Because they were looking at supposedly straight guys who look like gay guys and there’s no way to tell the difference. So yes, it has essentially gone back to the way it was from the start before the now-dead Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement even began. It feels like gay guys have nearly all gone back in the closet. I’ve read similar things about other US cities. It’s a really fucked up time. My gay friends asked me what I thought. Well, I’m just glad that I got to live through the Gay Mecca decades, a time where gay guys were out of the closet and lived in a safe and accepting area that I got to experience and a very important historical movement, which by all indications today appears to be absolutely dead. I’ve seen the same thing with gay guys. I know what my gaydar tells me, but closet cases can act just like belligerent and “don’t-you-dare-look-at-me-faggot” as straight guys. These are weird days and these days in San Francisco I have to admit that I rarely look at anyone because I don’t want to be annoyed by someone’s ugly look at me, especially the frown-faced Millennials. If they aren’t a piece of work! I don’t feel like having some nasty, belligerent look directed at me by what seems to be some asshole. Mi amigo/My friend says the same thing. He’s constantly telling me about the strange and nasty looks he gets from people. He’s an average looking guy. Nothing unusual about him but yet he gets these nasty looks from nuts as if they’re thinking, “Are you a terrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrist?” (roll eyes) Loco./Crazy. Rhetorically, I asked: How much longer are they going to leave up all this Rainbow Flag symbolism in The Castro when it does not fit the area anymore? The Castro is now mostly straight/breeders. I see a stream of young straight couples looking like they just met — her requiring a kiss and make-out session from him every 10-15 seconds to reassure needy her that he still loves her even though they just met based on their behaviour — flowing by my apartment headed into The Castro. So the Rainbow Flag symbolism and history of the area no longer applies. I know they’re trying to exploit the tourists but all any tourists has to do is look around and see that the area is now straight so the Queer symbols is misplaced, and what they’re trying to pretend the area still is doesn’t exist anymore. It’s out of place. And how do breeder couples feel about making out around so many Rainbow Flags? As I’ve written before, it’s almost as if the breeders have hijacked the Rainbow Flag the way they seem to like to make out under them. But if I were straight, it would feel a bit weird to me as if I were in the wrong neighbourhood. Chau.—el barrio rosa
This “straight” guy was all hot for mi amigo
Some tourists visiting San Francisco stopped mi amigo/my friend to ask some questions about directions, and mi amigo “fucked” with the guy because he knew he was a Queer boy. The Queer boy was married to the female he was with. That story has played out millions of times throughout history. She was a little older than the guy and he was wearing a wedding ring on the breeder finger (left hand fourth finger). Mi amigo told me: The guy was obviously a closet case with a wife. He (the guy) was doing all he could to hold back and not have her see him show interest in me. Mi amigo and the guy flirted for a few moments when she wasn’t looking. There was this rather intense “gay vibe” between us, as the guy and I kept looking at each other, then looking down so she wouldn’t catch us heavily cruising each other. As they left, it was clear that mi amigo had made a rather strong and probably lasting impression on the guy and the guy will likely be jacking off to this for some time, and asking himself: Why am I with her? (My answer: Because of society’s Breeder Brainwashing which still brainwashes the masses with the thinking that “you must be straight to be normal”). Mi amigo told me: The guy had his shirt off, was fairly good looking, was probably in his 60s, but it’s so rare to see any guy with his shirt off in today’s male-body-image-phobic society where a guy has to be completely covered up from head to toe. What’s hard for me to understand about this: These closet cases are married to a female and deliberately come to a former Gay Mecca (or maybe they think San Francisco and The Castro are still is a Gay Mecca) even though it isn’t and they still remain closeted here. And as I’ve written before, it seems that most gay guys who live here have gone back in the closet judging by their closeted behaviour and their “discreet” and “down low” and “behind closed doors” language. Maybe if she (his wife) wasn’t with him (this tourist guy all hot for mi amigo), he would have acted completely differently. But the sparks were flying there between them for a few moments. Is she in denial that her husband is gay? That’s often the case with closet case guys. Or because of fantasies, if she hadn’t been there would this situation not been as hot for the guy? That can be part of the hot fantasy for closet cases. To do something that is “forbidden.” Mi amigo said he sort of felt that is what was going on. That the guy was energised by the spontaneousness of it all, with his wife present. On another topic, mi amigo is seeing more and more gay guys (per his reliable gaydar) on U-toob in their videos with their (can you guess?) with their wives. This is what the now-dead Gay Rights Movement fought decades for, is it? For gay guys to marry women and have “a wife?” The same closeted behaviour that has happened for generations. That’s why, upon reflection, at this point the Movement seems like it was a waste of time. So gay guys can pretend to be straight and a breeder. How is that any different than it was before the Movement began? Insane. In many cases, it’s so obvious that the guy is gay. Can’t she see it or is she in denial? I told him: I believe it’s called “going back in the closet.” Sigh. Then he commented on the few gay guys he sees in The Castro on his walks. He said “They’re so snotty. No sense of community. Millennial snots and all they do is look at their phone.” Like I’ve said, you can saturate the Marina district of San Francisco (a traditionally breeder area) with Rainbow Flags but that won’t make the Marina a gay area. The same with The Castro with its over-saturation of Rainbow Flag symbolism. Chau.—el barrio rosa
We don’t smell or have shit in our hair.
So why do we get the nasty looks we do? Mi amigo/My friend and I had dinner the other night with a gay couple we know. They’ve been together for nearly 30 years. They told us they’ve always felt accepted in San Francisco, until the City changed some years ago. Since the Tech Industrial Complex came in and raped San Francisco bringing with it thousands of (mostly) snarly, frown-faced/even angry-looking, cold, seemingly-lobotomised wealthy Millennials — most of whom honestly act like the worst of assholes, what is wrong with these people? — this gay couple told us they no longer feel accepted in the City they have called home for decades. To these new Millennial residents: No one forced your elitist and snotty ass to move here and it’s not our fault that you hate that fucking tech job that you fell for when it was marketed to you with the “San Francisco is the city of innovation” bull shit. This gay couple said, “It’s just really different now. We get the nastiest looks from people and especially from other gay guys, or guys that our gaydar tells us are gay. Or are they back in the closet and don’t like seeing a gay couple? We get these nasty looks regardless of the person’s age. We’ve learned not to look at anyone because of the snarls and disapproving looks we get. We don’t understand it. This did not happen in the Old City before tech came in. Maybe it’s that people here are so unhappy with their own lives now or most are having terrible days and are thinking about that when they see us. Whatever the reason, it’s not good. It makes us feel isolated and we also feel like isolating ourselves. We usually stay in on weekends when we know the Millennial snots are out in droves with their signature frowned face.”
With this gay couple, both guys are average-looking guys. Nothing out of the ordinary about either of them. They wear some colour in their clothing, but they’ve tried wearing all-black or black and grey which seems to be San Francisco’s Official Dress Code in this new conformist City where most people look like they’re going to a funeral, and they say they get the same nasty reactions no matter what they wear. They are a gay couple in their 60s and it’s not as if they’re out cruising anyone or anything like that. They told me they get the same reaction from other gay guys who look around their same age. One said: It’s become so rare to get a friendly, human look of content from anyone that we say to each other when that happens, “We’re shocked that someone actually smiled at us today – write it on the calendar that this happened.”
We understand. Mi amigo/my friend and I get the same thing. Our society has decayed to a level where just basic common courtesy and human kindness of minimal friendliness is a thing of the past in this new City of San Francisco, with few exceptions to that. It’s why some of us say about San Francisco, “It’s nothing like it was.” As an analogy, today’s San Francisco makes Manhattan look like Mayberry with friendly Aunt Bea and Clara and others. In other words, snooty and snotty Manhattan has nothing on San Francisco. This gay couple told us: “We’re both into boys, we’re gay” but in this new City we feel very leery of looking at other boys now. We don’t understand what it is that people are thinking or thinking about us when they see us.”
Well, you’re not alone. We completely relate to what you’re saying and we’ve heard the same thing from other people.
On another topic: Anyone else noticed this silly new fad in San Francisco where every pair of jeans a person wears has to look like they’ve never been worn before, as if people have the “disposal income” for skin-tight disposable jeans? Loco. Crazy. In the Old City, we wore jeans until they were very comfortable and had some holes in them — I still wear them whether anyone likes it or not, like the ones I have on at the moment — and that was considered sexy especially in the former-radical Gay Mecca, which is long gone. Today, that type of jean is sold as “Vintage.” But for the most part, gone are the “vintage” comfortable looking jeans. The conformist Millineals have to all look alike in their absolutely new beyond-skin-tight jeans, only to be worn once and thrown away? That’s the way it seems. It must take them quite a while to get into them and out of them, especially if the person sweaty, as skin-tight as they are to the point where the legs can’t breathe. They’re worn by males and females. Most of the Millennial females look like anorexic cases to begin with as if they have an eating disorder. And I’ve seen some females poured into these skin-tight jeans and they looked more like “a stuffed pig.” It was quite a sight. She thinks she looks good in them with that big ass and thick thighs? Also these skin-tight jeans are not healthy as that can encourage bacteria, fungus infections and other types of skin disorders. But judging by this craze, most don’t care about any of that. This fad overrides any of that. Fads often override “common sense.” Chau.—el barrio rosa
The Naked Guys Are Back (San Francisco’s Castro). Aren’t you Excited?
Well, three of them are. Mi amigo went into The Castro on Sunday afternoon, 14 April 2019. It was moderately crowded. About two-thirds Millennial queers and the rest breeders. Where did the queers come from, I asked, since they’re not here any other time? He said they looked like the “Bridge and Tunnel” crowd — so they’re just here for the cheap watered-down alcohol from other cities in the Bay Area — and there were some old queer guys with their walking canes from the Old City going from bar to bar. But most were snotty Milleneals wearing all-black clothing. They were wearing the ubiquitous lingerie and skin-tight black jeans as is the standard these days around here. There were 3 naked guys from the Old City cruising The Castro. Mi amigo saw no queer guys looking at them. Only the obnoxious straights were looking at them — as if they had never seen a naked person before — and were making fun of them. Yes, they (presumably prudish breeder women) come over here to a former queer area to make fun of queers, or the few remaining queers. That’s the bottom line. But the naked guys are still here apparently but they were getting nothing but hate, and comments from immature breeders passing by them. Three women who apparently know no history of The Castro were making fun of one of the older naked guy’s and his small dick size (it was cold out) saying to him, “You expect to get a girl with that?” Does this ignorant bitch always make assumptions about people’s sexuality she knows nothing about? Go back to your hick and prudish Breedersville, bitch. Fuck off, ya trash. You know that straight guys don’t walk around naked because they’re too ashamed with body-image issues and too prudish to do that. They don’t want any “faggots” to even look at their “junk.” This naked guy was wearing a leather cock ring, a very small one. But that bitch’s immature comment is not what one would expect to hear in a former Gay Mecca saturated with Rainbow Flags. Which makes some of us think that the breeders have hijacked the Rainbow Flag as well. Again, a comment about “getting a girl” is not what one would expect to hear in a former queer area and where there are still a few queers, on the rare occasion. These trash were assuming the naked guy’s sexual orientation when it was clear to mi amigo/my friend that the guy is queer and felt comfortable being naked in what used to be a queer/gay neighbourhood. So, dear reader, this is what the New San Francisco and Castro have become. The opposite of what it was. Script writers couldn’t make this shit up. But this is what the conservatives have wanted for years. I hope they’re happy now, but looking at their frowned faces, they don’t look happy.
One of the queer bars was having a straight event. You read that correctly. Yes, a straight event. Could someone please explain to me why a queer bar would be having a straight event? Why? Well, it’s the Century of Insanity where that type of thing happens, so I guess I should expect it. Always good to promote breeder sexuality in a former Gay Mecca. This City is full of straight bars so why the fuck does a queer bar in The Castro feel the need to have a straight event is beyond us! Well, they’re just trying to cash-in on the new Breeder Mecca which The Castro is most of the time. The other queer bars were packed with a mix of breeders and queers. Can someone tell me again why breeders go to queer bars? Is it to take them over? I have no interest in going to a breeder bar. There were of course the black baby strollers in The Castro, something I never saw in the Old City. And that brings us to another topic:
I got an e-mail from a local queer guy who told me he was down cruising on Market Street near Castro here in San Francisco and he never got a single
look from any guy because what few queer guys there were, they were looking at their damn phone. If one thinks one can “cruise” The Castro and pick up guys, you’re wrong. It’s impossible, unlike the days of the Old City where that was common. As I’ve written before, cruising is long gone here. I don’t see anyone cruising anything but their phone(s) and some of these addicts have multiple phones. Often the guy one is desperately looking for on that phone just walked by him on the sidewalk but neither of you saw each other because you couldn’t bring yourself to look up from that fucking screen. And when one does meet the guy, he has no social skills at all to talk and meet “in person” anyway, so why bother? All he does is stand there and stare as if born without any vocal cords. I suspect such a get-together would resort to texting each other sitting side-by-side on the couch, like so many couples do these days, queers or breeders. Mi amigo said yesterday: I do long for the Old City and its friendliness. Yes, I do understand. This New City sucks. Although the Old City wasn’t that friendly either, but compared to this one it was. It was far friendlier than this New City with its snarly, frowny-faced, chip-on-both-shoulder Milleneals where the words “hello” and “excuse me” are not in their vocabulary. Mi amigo said: It’s depressing being in The Castro these days. It’s similar where you think back on your past and no one you knew is there. Yes, I think it’s the same empty feeling I feel when I think about my disco days with my friends in DC or my experience in Orchestra Choruses, where the Chorus today is an entirely new group of choristers (where is the group I sang with today?), or in the case of the renowned University of Maryland Chorus, they’re no longer around. They were so outstanding so it’s sad to think they’re no longer around. They were disband by the University of Maryland some years ago. But I do know how he feels because I feel the same way. Chau.—el barrio rosa
Why would a closet case move to a (former) gay area?
Mi amigo/My friend and I went grocery shopping today and we couldn’t help but notice the number of closet cases in the store with females, as if they were a breeder couple. You may be asking, “In San Francisco you’re seeing this?” Yes, absolutely. Sounds loco/crazy doesn’t it? The majority of them could not shop without their phone. One wonder how these people ate before they got addicted to a phone? But “Why would a closet case move to a gay area?” is a question that continues to come up here in San Francisco. We continue to see young Millennial “straight” couples together where it’s obvious to us that the guy is queer. No doubt. He tries to hide it including his fleeting cruising and seems to go out of his way to avoid looking at another guy, or anyone really. With San Francisco’s reputation of being a Gay Mecca for decades, I suspect most people including these closet cases still think we are a Gay Mecca, even though we’re not. Most of these new residents seem to have moved here without knowing anything about San Francisco. The Gay Mecca is long gone. The Gay Mecca is now a Breeder Mecca. The breeders have taken over with their in-your-face hand holding and make out sessions under Rainbow Flags. So, considering we’re probably still seen as a Gay Mecca to most people who don’t live here, why would a closet case deliberately move to The Castro or Upper Market or hang out there when they have the whole City (of breeders) where they could be? Or is it because he thinks he might be able to “get some on the side” that she won’t know about. Living a lie, in other words. It annoys, frustrates me, even makes me a bit angry to see a gay boy with his gay shame living a lie here in 2019, not being true to himself and moved to San Francisco, of all places! Why would he move to San Francisco to stay in the fucking closet? Mind-boggling. You would think that a closet case would have moved to a place like Mayberry being that ashamed of his queer sexual orientation. Chau.—el barrio rosa
It’s hard to watch. Maybe it’s the same way where you live.
(25 April 2019) This sort of feels like another version of the last thing I wrote directly up above. I guess that’s because it feels like this can’t be overstated. Living in San Francisco where many things now are the opposite of what they used to be is hard to watch for us longtime residents who were active during and lived through the now-gone San Francisco Gay Mecca decades. Seeing all of the closeted gay guys with girlfriends/wives in Upper Market and in Cole Valley, some of whom (the guys) heavily cruise us “discreetly” and on the “down low” (closeted) when she’s not looking. In some cases she catches him looking and we’ve seen Ms Bitch give him an elbow in his rib along with a “Don’t you dare look at another guy” look. Listen Ms Bitch, you can’t control who he looks at. Fuck off. When will she realise that her boyfriend or husband is really queer but in the closet? And there are thousands more just like him. Why would someone who grew up during The Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement be in the closet? What anti-gay stuff did he hear his boomer parents say in conversations or say to him directly? Or is he merely following the perfunctory and ubiquitous societal “Family Script” laid out for him where he’s expected to be with a female and is pestered about, “Do you have a girlfriend?” That’s followed by “When are you two getting married?” That’s followed by “When are you going to have a baby?” Rather than have the courage to be true to himself and honest with people and come out of the closet he resorts to living a lie and pretending to be a straight guy because that’s expected of him by his anti-gay family and possibly friends. And the thing is, this closeted gay guy with a female moved to a City that used to be a Gay Mecca or did they hook up after they moved here, in his case, out of gay shame? That’s the irony of it all. Or did they move here because he was thinking he might be able to get some dick on the side? Well good luck with that! It’s not at all the way it used to be here now where getting dick on the side was easier to do, or at least dick that you want. Do these closeted guys not know that the Gay Mecca is gone before they move here? Most of the new snotty and arrogant Millennial residents seem to have moved here without ever having heard of San Francisco based on their behaviour and what we’ve heard some of them say, and their demeanor. With these Millennial straight couples, they sneer at anyone who is older than them, whom, from what I’ve read they blame for all the problems in today’s world. The fact is some of us have nothing to do with today’s problems and are not responsible for them because we protested and fought against them for decades before these Millennial trash that I’m talking about were even born. These Millennial straight couples (with the closeted gay guy?) apparently take no responsibility for their own miserable lives. Everybody else is to blame for their problems. Most of these Millennials are extremely ageist. With one closet case after the other we see variations of this. Overall, they are the unfriendliest of people as if they’re saying, “Get out of my City.” Listen assholes, some of us have lived here long before these Millennial trash were ever a thought. It’s rare to see a gay couple anymore and when we do, it’s usually a gay couple from the Old City (meaning an older couple) so we stop and look in appreciation of them for a few moments. But they’re usually just as snotty and unfriendly as the Millennials. There’s absolutely no sense of “community” here in San Francisco by any definition anymore, which is saddening and depressing, especially to us longtime residents. To tell you the truth, I never thought that San Francisco was that friendly to begin with, but the Old City was more friendly than this new lobotomised and culture-less City of San Francisco owned by Tech Industrial Complex. One wonders why all of these closeted Millennial gay guys moved here to San Francisco, the most expensive City in the US, — with girlfriends or wives? What idiots would move to the most expensive place in the country? That doesn’t seem very intelligent to some of us. But they’re probably all the techies with their “everybody’s doing it so we have to move there too” mentality, and with their revisionist history they say that they have come here in droves to “save a dying City and make it a modern city.” Considering what they’ve done to San Francisco, “Modern” means = cold, lobotomised, snotty and snotty, and elitist and a playground for the super-wealthy. It’s now called Billionaire Bay. That’s what they’ve made it. Even if San Francisco were dying before they arrived here (which it wasn’t), why did they feel it their responsibility to save a dying City? And why San Francisco? The reality is that the Old City was not dying whatsoever. So this revisionist history on the part of the elitist Millennials is just a head trip on their part. The assholes. And I always have to say this because of the stupid people out there: I’m not talking about all Millennials. Just the majority of them from our experience. I think there are maybe five Millennials who don’t act like the worst of human trash. I’ve just not met them, except one or two of them and we got along fine. They weren’t ageist, snotty or self-absorbed/entitled. But as for the rest, ugh, groan, I often ask: “Where did these Millennial trash come from?” And I would like to know that. What backwater cesspool did these pathetic samples of human beings come from? In the Old City, I didn’t know any gay guys who were in the closet. Today, that seems to be all there is. It feels like we’re back in the 1940s. It’s really stunning that a Gay Mecca would turn into this because the straights/breeders took over. Gracias for reading. Chau.—el barrio rosa
With Breeder couples, it seems that women dream of taking a guy and “taming him” and trying to “own him.” Rather than accepting a guy as he is, many busy-body and needy women feel it’s their responsibility to change a guy into what they want him to be after they meet him and force a family on him. The first thing a woman wants to know is: How much money are you going to spend on me, and how many children are you going to give me? These women don’t seem to understand that maybe it is they themselves who need to change and stop being so “drippy pussy” syrupy emotional and like an emotional train wreck about everything as well as their twisted and needy approach to men. It’s as if they’re always looking for a replacement for their daddy in another guy. Women and men are definitely different and having been around my share of emotional wreck women, I much prefer guys, assuming he hasn’t been changed or womanised by some “soft” needy woman. Guys are pretty much the same day after day; pretty emotionally stable from my experience. But women! I cannot say the same about women who are often all jacked up about the latest drama, usually of their own creation. They go from one trivial drama to another and barely have 1-2 days in between the dramas to recover. Take an anti-depressant and create another drama. Their life can often be one continual chaotic mess after the other. Mi amigo/My friend who started out with females before he came out of the closet knows all about womanised guys. He can spot them a mile away after a few moments. From being around him, I now can spot them quickly too. Women can’t just accept a guy for the way he is, they feel they have to make the guy to the way they want him and tailor the guy to their ways and their needs. Well, if the guy’s parents couldn’t change him — assuming they felt he needed to be changed — why does she think she can? It’s because she wants babies to give her more attention from people and the guy is responsible for the income to provide for the babies up until the age of 18, at least. Most guys have no clue of what they’re getting into with a female. Is that pussy and tits really worth it? It’s not according to my straight neighbour. Over the years, just having females have friends have been a challenge. It’s like they have multiple personalities and you never know which person you’re going to get at any moment: Is it the nice person that was originally appealing as a friend, or is it Ms Bitch who became the opposite of the nice person, or the person somewhere in between or nothing like the other two personalities inside the same female? Mi amigo says the same from his experience. A female’s mood can change as quickly as turning on a light switch and you don’t know what you said or did to cause this emotional change in her as she storms out of the room in tears. I’m thinking: WTF is wrong with her? I never had a guy act like that. When females talk about changing guys, they’re talking about income and meeting her emotional needs. Bottom line: A straight (or gay but in the closet) womanised guy comes off like he’s a female. He talks like a female and he talks frequently about “love” to the extreme. He’s very syrupy like a female and seems to be overloaded with estrogen rather than a reasonable amount of testosterone. The other day, the television was on and this closet case guy was being interviewed — he’s a musician — and I was doing some research on him. Mi amigo/My friend walked in the room and without me saying a word asked, “Who’s that gay guy on the television? Oh let me guess, he’s straight with a wife and kids, right? Since that’s the new fad these days.” I said: Well you’re not far off. In fact, you’re spot on. What you just said about him is completely correct. Yes, I too said he’s a gay guy from watching his body language and listening to him talk in the interview. He’s certainly no Mr Macho Straight Guy. The reason I started to research him is because on the bottom of the screen it talked about “fatherhood.” I asked the television: Him, a father? Or do they mean a gay guy who has adopted children and is a father? After some time, I found a picture of him with his wife (of course) and he’s pumped out 3-4 children (of course). That’s one thing I’ve noticed about closet cases. They seem to have to go overboard on having children. One is not enough. The thinking seems to be that the more children they have is a way of proving to everyone how straight he is and a breeder, so he needs at least 3. A gay guy (closet case) who lived across the street from me up until a few months ago was the same way. Mr Gay Closet Case and his wife were on their third child. My straight neighbour told me he had talked with the guy a few times and it was obvious to him that the guy was gay, but in the closet. The musician I mentioned who was interviewed on television has been completely womanised when you see that he wrote from his music tour this syrupy stuff: “Just one more night before I see your sweet face and can hold the people (meaning his children) we’re teaching how to love.” (Link). (roll eyes). Oh jesus, fucking christ. That’s what I call: Drippy pussy. The syrup flows. It’s all right to say that to the person directly on the phone but you don’t need to tweet it so the whole world sees it. Or was that why he did it? So that as many people as possible would see it and see the picture of him cheek-to-cheek with his wife and child and be convinced that he’s straight. What mi amigo/my friend and I saw was another closet case with a female and kids and the dude has been completely womanised. I wonder when guys will try to men-ize women so that not every other word out of their mouths is the word “love.” It’s a bit much. Then I found an image of this musician being kissed on the cheek back stage by another guy (who also looks queer) and the musician looked quite comfortable in his “queer pose” for the kiss. A genuine straight guy would likely be trying to move away from the guy kissing him rather than leaning into him and welcoming the kiss. It’s back to the 1940s where it’s “in” to be in the closet. No need for gay pride events or pride parades. Pride is over. Been there, done that. Although I suspect this guy hasn’t. And it’s not back in the closet for him. He never came out, I suspect. (Related: Closet Talk: Married Anonymous Guys Share The Awful Reality Closeted!) Chau.—el barrio rosa
His parents are trying to make him a straight boy
A breeder family lives across the street from me. I remember the day they moved in, probably 20+ years ago. This straight couple had children late. I think they’re now both in their early 60s. Their faces both look like hell now from raising two children. And they’re both as snotty and unfriendly as the Millennials around here. Their daughter is probably around 15, I’d say. Her phone seems to be her life. The boy (their son) is 10 or 11. He’s very interested in the birds in our neighbourhood which sort of clashes with the Mr Jock personae that his dad and mother are trying to indoctrinate into him. How many jocks do you know are interested in trees and birds? They live in the Upper Market area of San Francisco which was part of the Gay Mecca when the Mecca existed. This area used to be full of queer boys. Today it’s mostly breeders, some Old City and Millennial snots. It’s now a very unfriendly area. On one occasion awhile back, I overheard the boy’s dad say something to a neighbour about how his son was really into baseball. That’s odd, I’ve never seen the boy with anything having to do with baseball other than, today, wearing a black baseball cap. Years ago I heard the boy’s mother say how she loved being a “soccer mom” even though at the time neither of her children were involved in any sports because they were too young. I think her thinking was: “It’s not that you actually have to play soccer, it’s just that you talk about your children that play soccer, whether they do or don’t.” Based on how they dress for school, both children are in private, conservative, religious schools. From what I’ve seen of their daughter, to me, she looks like a lesbian. Have the parents detected that from her yet? The boy is also in the Scouts. They’re really trying to brainwash him. I sense that the parents are doing everything they can to “make our boy straight” with the baseball cap and Mr Jock clothing. Note to idiot parents: Your son’s sexuality was determined before he came out of her pussy. One cannot change one’s sexuality through brainwashing, including using sports clothing or any other type of clothing. And living in San Francisco — of all places — one would think you would know this considering you lived through the Gay Mecca decades here. You can’t make your boy “straight” by putting a baseball cap on him or any jock clothing or having him play with balls and baseball. But you can make him want to stay in the closet and pretend to be straight and live a lie about his sexuality — and possibly ruin many people’s lives by doing so by “getting the girl” and breeding and then later possibly coming out of the closet and going through a divorce and having to pay child support until his children are 18 years old — if he’s queer, because of all the anti-queer messages you’ve given to him through his upbringing. But I have seen other breeder parents in the neighbourhood do the same thing: Put sports clothing — especially a baseball cap because again, that’s supposed to immediately make any guy “a jock” — on their little boys to “make him straight.” Human sexuality doesn’t work that way, parents. Of course there are many faux “straight” guys, but in reality they are not straight. They are closeted gay guys, and merely wearing a baseball cap doesn’t make a gay guy want to fuck pussy. Now, should the girl go to her mother and say, “Mom, you know, I think I like girls, I think I’m gay.” Her mother would likely say to her, “Are you sure, honey? Well, bring any nice girls you like here to the house. I’d love to meet them. They are welcome here.” If the boy were to go to his mother or father and say, “You know, I think I like boys, I think I’m gay” their reaction would likely be: “NO! NO! NO! NO! Don’t tell me that. I don’t want to hear that. We will change that. We didn’t raise you as a sports jock, put you in the Scouts and have you in a conservative religious school to have you turn out to be a faggot. That is completely unacceptable to us. The boy says, “But mom and dad, you told me this used to be a gay area so I thought you’d be cool with it.” His parents say, “It was cool as long as no one in my family was ‘like that.’ This is completely unacceptable. We’re putting you in therapy ASAP.” The boy says: But I’ve seen you talk with the few remaining gay guys around here in a friendly way. His dad says: That’s only because they’re homeowners like us and they are not my family. I’m just being polite to them. If they were renters, I’d completely ignore them. It’s part of San Francisco’s class-warfare of “homeowners (wealthy) versus renters (poor).” The boy says: “But you told my sister it was okay if she brought girls here.” The parents say to him: “That’s different. She’s a girl. That’s what girls do. Some girls like girls. Boys are not supposed to like other boys. That’s weird. That’s not normal. You listen to us carefully: We have big plans for you as our straight son. You better be straight!!! You’re supposed to make us grandparents by getting married to a girl and being normal. So what you’re telling us is completely unacceptable.” Well, a conversation like that might take place sometime in the future. Or, both children will stay in the closet, if either of them are queer. Or perhaps just their daughter will half-way come out by bringing girls to the house. So far, I’ve only seen girls show up over there, but at this time she’s too young to be dating anybody I should think. Maybe her mother says to her: “No boys can come here. It’s too soon for you to be bringing boys to the house. Only girls.” Their possibly-lesbian daughter is thinking: Oh don’t worry mom, I promise I won’t bring any boys to the house yet. Just girls. As their daughter walks back to her room jumping up and down she’s thinking: I can bring all the girls here that I want! She doesn’t know how that makes me feel. How about that! In fact, you’ll never see a boy here other than my brother. Chau.
They hate this new City (San Francisco)
(mayo de 2019/May 2019) Mi amigo/My friend ran into an Old City queer couple today on his walk. He really enjoyed talking with them and they talked about an hour. He said it was so refreshing to talk with people who were born with vocal chords and had social skills and were friendly — unlike most of these new snotty-assed, angry-looking Millennial trash who don’t have the ability to talk — and he said talking with them was like listening to us talk about how San Francisco and The Castro have done a 180. He said: “They sounded just like us. So it’s not just us who have noticed these negative changes. They hate this New City, they can’t stand the new Disney-fied Castro and the people. They say, like you say, that they don’t care if every merchant goes out of business in The Castro because they are responsible for ruining The Castro along with corporate politician Scott Penis and the former (now dead) mayor. They mainly blame them for these changes. I won’t go into all that they talked about because it’s nearly all that I’ve written about over the years. They agree with us that the so-called queer community is now dead. Fin. The End. There’s nothing going on anywhere. They’ve checked out other cities (they said they looked all over the world) but said they’re staying here because considering how San Francisco has been ruined and the awful snotty-assed people living here now, it’s still better than the other places they’ve been. (Really?) They talked about how our Halloween was ruined and that the end of The Castro was the sidewalk widening project which was intended to wash away the history of the Gay Mecca, which it did, along with the gay neighbourhood. They kept blaming asshole Scott Penis — a heteronormative gay guy conservative politician charading as a “moderate” who doesn’t like to see dicks — and our ex-mayor for ruining the now so-called queer community. It’s as if Scott Penis moved here from New Jersey deliberately to ruin The Castro because he (living in New Jersey) didn’t like what he was seeing on his television about The Gay Mecca. Yes, I remember when he was being referred to as “Boy Wonder” in the neighbourhood and the conservatives were all but genuflecting to him when they passed him on the sidewalk in The Castro. It was quite a spectacle. The so-called queer community had already become very conservative so they en masse voted for this phone zombie asshole. That’s how he got in office for two terms. (Every time I’ve had the misfortune of seeing his face he’s on his fucking phone). I don’t pay much attention to politics anymore for my own health and sanity, but I don’t think that Scott Penis is being treated as the messiah figure in Sacramento that he was when he was on the Board of Supervisors in San Francisco. I sense he’s been relegated to a lower profile. About fucking time that people stop worshipping his homeless-hating elitist ass. When he was on the Board, one got the impression that he was the only person on the Board. You rarely heard about anyone else. It was always about messiah Scott Penis has spoken. Let’s all bow down and worship this new-found saviour. Ugh. You would have thought that he was the President of the Board even though he wasn’t. It was as if the corporate media contacted him directly and nobody else because it was his pus/his face that you saw on the television. Chau.
Most queers have become so fucking conservative (San Francisco)
What more can be said about this that I’ve not talked about for years? What brought this up was that one of the snotty queer guys in my neighbourhood bought a big new car today. Why didn’t he buy a small car? Not smart enough to do so? He’ll enjoy trying to park the thing — “Oh, I didn’t think about that!” — and it will turn into an oven when it’s hot out because of its colour. He’s probably in his 50s, maybe. Over the years, I’ve managed to get one smile out of him. I now completely ignore him to avoid seeing his constant frown. His partner is the opposite. He smiles at me and says hello. I can’t imagine how the two possibly met when they seem like such opposites in the friendly category. The snotty guy dresses very conservatively, his partner less so. Please keep in mind that these are queer boys who lived through the proudly-radical Gay Mecca decades here in San Francisco. Today, they are the opposite of anything remotely “proudly-radical.” Like most queers here today, if anything, they are proudly conservative, even if they align with the corrupt right-wing “Democratic” Party Cult, which often serves as enablers for the Republican Party Cult. So this new car that he bought looks like everyone else’s. It reminds me of the City’s dress code/clothing fad here: Conform! Obey! Wear black and grey! You should always dress as if going to or coming back from a funeral. His new car could be confused for a hearse. It’s this dull, depressing, drab metallic grey. Upon reflection, it fits his personality. An ugly colour really, but that’s what he likes, or was it to be conformist? It does match what little I know about his personality. The only reason I know he has a new car is because the fucking alarm sounded and I watched him stand there clueless and literally throw up his arms as if he didn’t care how long the alarm sounded because it announced to the neighbourhood that he has a new car! And that was the whole point of it wasn’t it? But who cares that he has a new car? This City is full of new cars with shallow and superficial people (Millennials) trying to “Keep Up With The Joneses.” He finally got the alarm turned off. But anyway, he could have bought something colourful like the colours in the Rainbow Flag, but maybe he’s one that finds the flag passé as most of the conservative now-dead so-called “queer community” does these days. There’s absolutely no feel or sense of community here whatsoever. Chau.
Another Closet Case Breeder Family Moves Into the Neighbourhood
It was clear to both myself and mi amigo/my friend that the guy we saw moving things into the condo across the street yesterday is a queer boy. But he has adopted the Jock Fad which means that he wears a baseball cap to try to look like Mr Heteronormative Breeder Jock. You don’t actually have to be a jock and work out or anything sports-oriented, just wear a baseball cap and you’re instantly Mr Jock. We saw another guy with him thinking that was his male partner, but he sort of disappeared and Mr Jock was doing all the moving in. Then today it’s a different story. Mr Jock arrived with “the wife” and 2 out-of-control young girls running around in a — what is a — strange new neighbourhood to them. “The wife” looks like she’s about 14 years old and Mr Jock look quite a bit older without his baseball cap on. He was doing all the moving by himself. Apparently they can’t afford movers or are too conservative. There are two queer couples in the building, one below them and another below them. So one queer couple will love having children running around above them. Lovely. And there’s nothing one can do to silence that. Mr Closet Case Jock has really dug himself in deeply with “the wife” and three children, and he must have started about 8-10 years ago considering the age of the oldest daughter. They are the typical Milleneals meaning inconsiderate and self-entitled of anyone else who lives here by allowing their kids to run around out-of-control with neither parent watching them. They were running all over other resident’s decks. Some people should not be parents, but I suspect Mr Closet Case and “the wife” are merely following The Family Script, heavily-pressured by their families to do as they’re doing. Well Mr Closet Case may explode some day and say “Enough of this shit? I want a divorce and see you in court and as for the kids….” Mi amigo asked: Why does he have so many children? I said: Because that’s what closet cases seem to be doing. To prove to others how straight they are, they go overboard on breeding. One child is not enough. They need an entire brood, as Mr Closet Case is obviously working on with all the expenses involved in that. But can’t afford a mover? And we’ve still not seen any furniture. Just stuff in boxes. I wonder how he felt as he was moving everything by himself with no one helping him? Did he ask himself, “How did I get involved in this mess? The bitch is not even helping me. I have to do it all. I have to do all of this just to get stinky pussy? She never cleans the thing out or washes it.” You made the big mistake bro, by not having the intelligence, courage and strength to be who you really are. There are thousands and thousands of other frauds just like you: Closet Cases. Too damn fucked up in the head and insecure to be themselves. What did these bigoted, anti-queer and prejudiced boomers tell their children to cause these Millennials to be such fucked up human beings? And the thing is, these Millennials came along during the height of the now-dead Gay and Lesbian Rights Movements, which their boomer parents must have hated and despised. That’s all we can conclude. This story will likely continue for years. Although, this breeder family may not be here for long. That condo has been a revolving door of tenants over the months as if it’s month-by-month. And this is not exactly an area where children can play so I’m not sure where his children will play since there is no backyard. Interesting that they (HE?) chose to move into what he may think is still part of the (now-dead) Gay Mecca area with a couple of small Rainbow Flags on a few homes. One kinda wonders why they (HE?) chose to move here, especially since he’s so effeminate at times? Hmmmmmmmmm? Update: “The wife” looks like she’s about mid-twenties according to mi amigo. She left and brought some stuff from their other place including garbage. She also brought garbage over here from their other place to fill up the garbage cans over here. The back of the vehicle looked like it was full of garbage as well. She must have started having children at about age 16. Her face looks very drawn. He’s much older than she. She’s in her 20s and he’s in his (probably) 50s or 60s. Was she looking for “daddy?” He’s balding with some grey hair which may also explain the baseball cap routine. We sense they’ve moved many times. They move as if they’re professionals at it. The queer couple is away so they’ll be in sort of a shock when they return and realise there are now rambunctious, out-of-control children living above them. One theme keeps coming up: Why did or are all of these closet cases move to this area? They could live anywhere in this City. They could live in the traditionally straight areas of San Francisco, such as North Beach, the Marina, Union Street area, Pacific Heights, anywhere really. So why The Castro/Upper Market? It can’t be for the transportation options since nearly all of these Millennials drive big-assed SUV type vehicles. It can’t be for the real estate or rentals which are the highest in the City. Well, because of the over-saturation of Rainbow Flags in The Castro and maybe from what they’ve heard about San Francisco (outdated information) they still think this is a gay City or gay Mecca, even though it’s not. That’s long gone. So, being closet cases, maybe they thought they could get some dick “discreetly” and on the “down low” on the side while “The Wife” is away or at work, and Mr Closet Case would still be following The Breeder Family Script required of him by his family. They wouldn’t know he’s cheating on her because he’s gay and getting dick on the side. But, if you’re queer and getting dick on the side and if you really enjoy the get-togethers, won’t that make going back to “her” even less appealing and make you realise what you could have had if you had followed your own gay sexual orientation and instincts, wishes and desire and come out of the fucking closet and not listened to your (bigoted/prejudiced/anti-gay?) family? I suspect that’s a lot of what we’re seeing here. I suspect all of these closet case get-togethers are done by phone because nobody looks at anybody anymore other than with a nasty snarl and few people have any social skills at all. So what do these Millennial closet cases do when they actually hook up with another guy when they don’t have any social skills? Do they just stand there and look at each other because they can’t talk? Or do they just grunt at each other? Mi amigo/My friend said: Well none of them look at me to cruise me. All I get are nasty looks from them. The same for me, which is why I’ve learned to look the opposite direction to avoid seeing their nasty-assed face. In fact, we’ve noticed that Millennials don’t even look at each other. They give each other the nasty-assed face too. These are some fucked-up people. Not all, but most. I always have to say that because I suppose there are a few Millennials somewhere who are not like this, but I’ve not come in contact with any of them, unfortunately. The overwhelming majority of Millennials who have moved here in recent years act like complete snarly-faced, angry, chip-on-both-shoulders assholes. What a pathetic generation. Chau.
“Out” but in (back in) the closet
I’m specifically thinking of queer boys here: Since “everyone” for the most part is assumed to be straight — even the most “nelly” and effeminate of guys — by most people in our breeder-brainwashed society, and because nearly all queers have put any queer symbols that they used to wear on their person back in the closet, even if the person is “out” nobody knows that other than the person’s immediate friends or family, if the person is “out” with them. So, he’s “out” but in the closet. He wouldn’t be in the closet if he were still wearing queer symbols on his clothes or backpack to let anyone who sees him know that he’s a queer boy, such as seeing his Rainbow Flag on his backpack. But you never see that anymore. I read this to mi amigo/my friend before posting it and he said, “You’re right! I haven’t seen queer symbols on people’s clothes or backpacks in years! That all disappeared. It’s also rare to see a Rainbow Flag on buildings or apartment decks around here anymore.” Yes, back in the closet, even if you’re (verbally) “out.” Because most people assume that another person is automatically straight (even someone where, to me, it’s obvious that he’s queer), a queer person can be out of the closet but still be in the closet. Why? Because he (again I’m especially thinking of queer boys here but the same can apply to lesbians) never tells anyone that he’s queer because the topic never comes up for him to say “I’m out and queer” and he may not feel comfortable bringing it up in these days, and nobody asks these days because of the strange, insane times we’re living in where “Everyone is assumed to be straight.” And these days it can be uncomfortable to ask someone, “Are you gay/queer?” It didn’t used to be that way during the now-dead Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement. It’s one of the many problems with that “gay assimilation” bull shit that those corporatist revisionist history “LGBT” know-it-all assholes didn’t think about. Even though same-gender marriage is legal in the US (at least as of this writing; don’t know how much longer since an Executive Order from orange can make gay marriage illegal….and don’t think the bigot won’t do that!), I still read the word “married” all over the place online and it means a guy is married to a woman by the context it’s written in. The guy doesn’t specify, “married to a woman.” Because as I wrote in one of my articles, gay marriage is too new for most people to even think about it when they think of marriage or wedding rings. Straight is assumed. So a guy’s sex ad, for example, will say, “I’m bi. I’m looking for straight, married or bi guys only.” Married in that context means married to a woman. And the guy is not interested in hooking up with any gay or queer guys even though he’s looking for queer sex. Or an article will say that some guy is “married” and it’s implied that he’s married to a woman. So a queer guy may say “I’m out” when asked, but the assumption is that he’s straight until then because he wears no queer symbols on his person or ever talks about anything queer-related so it’s essentially being back in the closet in our heteronormative breeder-brainwashed society. I never hear anyone ask, “Are you gay?” anymore anywhere around here. I think that would be considered offensive these days considering the number of closet cases we see in San Francisco these days, especially among the fucked-up Millennials. Occasionally I get these (what I call) “1940s closet case looks” from guys where he appears so afraid to look at me and will only do so at a distance. He looks like he’s wondering “Are you a terrrrrrrrrrrist?” I feel like asking the guy, “What fucking head trip are you on? Why are you looking at me like that? Do I have shit in my hair? Why is it that nearly everyone in this City walks around looking like they’re terrified and afraid of their own fucking shadow? What is wrong with people!?” jesus fucking christ. Then, when the guy and I are nearly face-to-face walking on the sidewalk he seems terrified of speaking to me when I casually say a friendly, “Hey.” He says nothing or grunts in response. A few moments later, I look and the guy is standing on the sidewalk and “cruises” or looks at me from a distance, never saying a word. No social skills? Is he shy or what? Well no, doesn’t seem to be. I’ve seen him talking with a few other people in the neighbourhood. But I don’t really have much patience for people like that. But “out” and in the closet is very real these days as I sense more and more queers are going back in the closet based on the 1940s-style closet case behaviour we’re seeing in San Francisco, of all places! Chau.
Easily Deceived by Rainbow Flags (San Francisco’s Castro)
I was reading a local restaurant review for a greasy spoon restaurant in The Castro. I shouldn’t have read it because I’m often annoyed at the gushing that many people write in online restaurant reviews as if they are being paid to do so, or have stocks in the restaurant. Restaurant reviews often sound like they’re written by the same person. I also read a lot of disinformation and ignorance in reviews, such as the case with the review I’m about to tell you about. The review was written by someone supposedly from Chicago who said she went to this restaurant in The Castro with her gay friend. She wrote that she knows that the restaurant is in the “gay” [sic] neighbourhood but there were a lot of heterosexual couples in the restaurant. Is that why she put the word “gay” in quotes? Did it never occur to this woman and her gay friend that The Castro is no longer a queer area? What made her think it’s still a “gay” [sic] neighbourhood? Might it be the over-saturation of Rainbow Flags intended to deceive people who don’t live here into thinking that The Gay Mecca still exists? All one has to do is to look around, spend a short bit of time here and one should be able to see that’s no longer the case. Some locals say the only way you can see the former Gay Mecca is by looking in your rear view mirror, because The Castro today is not even a museum piece of its former self. I was recently in The Castro at midnight on a Friday night and it looked like during the holidays. Dead, by comparison. During the Gay Mecca years, midnight on a Friday night was when The Castro was in high action with queer boys all over the place and a very sexual environment and heavy cruising. Today? Nada. Nothing. Many, if not most, of us longtime locals hate/do not like The Castro today. It’s been ruined by the conservative merchants and when conservative — who charades as a “moderate” — gay Scott Penis dreamed up that needless scheme of widening the sidewalks (removing all the queer history from the gay mecca years) and making The Castro “Children-Family-Friendly.” Translation: Sanitised for the breeders who were moving in. Welcome the (homophobic, prudish) breeders. Kick out the queers. Sanitise the windows of the sex shops by putting white stickers over any dick or ass shots on video covers. Yes that happened in The Castro and still does. The breeder prudes call the cops on the sex shops and the police go in the shop and complain about the “explicit” sex shots in their store window. It seems that prudes don’t have the ability to turn their head and look the opposite direction, if offended by seeing a dick or ass shot. Instead, these prudish breeder trash claim to be “Protecting the children/What about the children?” That’s funny, I’ve never seen any children looking in the sex shop windows. They make up stuff to serve their conservative prudish agenda. The same breeder trash who vote for politicians that cut programmes that help children. So much for “protecting the children!” So what made this woman from Chicago and her friend think that The Castro is still a “gay” neighbourhood. If I had to take a guess, I suspect it was all the Rainbow Flags intended to deceive tourists, and I guess that’s working to deceive suckers. Even though she saw all of these breeder couples in the restaurant I guess it didn’t dawn on her to ask: Is this now a breeder neighbourhood? Sure looks like it. Yes mi amor, it is now a Breeder Mecca especially when you see him and her making out at the corner of 18th and Castro and putting on a show there as if they’ve just met, or him and her making out at Market and Castro with the same behaviour, or him and her making out at the bus stop on 18th and Castro, or him and her making out after walking out of what is supposed to be a gay bar (all the straight bars in San Francisco closed?), or him and her sucking face during dinner in one of the Castro restaurants leaving some restaurant patrons saying “Get a room somewhere!; this is a restaurant assholes!”), or him and her making out in the Harvey Milk Plaza under the big Rainbow Flag (breeders love to make out under Rainbow Flags for some reason; trying to hijack it?) or a breeder guy walking with a female holding hands and he’s wearing a shirt that reads, “Fuck you, homo” like I saw recently at Castro and Market Streets. I had to do a double-take on that one. It’s still pretty bold to wear a shirt like that around here considering the few remaining queer boys still here (not many but a few). It wasn’t that long ago that the breeders were whinging about queers being “you’re in our face with your sexuality.” That’s exactly what breeders are doing in The Castro today. The breeders are in our faces with their breeder sexuality. I don’t really care to see straight people make out. Take it to the Marina district! No, they insist on doing it in The Castro. And they always act like they just met and can’t wait to fuck. It’s okay when they put on these big make-out scenes on street corners for attention (and that’s why some/many of them do it; exhibitionists), but queers are not supposed to do the same. Hypocrites! Therefore, one can indeed conclude that The Castro is a (not-so-covert anti-queer) Breeder Mecca as I’ve said many times. Mi amigo/My friend is constantly telling me about the fleets of black baby strollers he sees on his way to the gym near The Castro with 6 babies all on just one corner. Fleets of baby strollers in The Castro clogging up the sidewalks. Yeah, that really sounds like it’s a “gay” neighbourhood alright. Chau.
We’ve made so much progress, haven’t we?! [sarcasm intended]. Some of my commenters on other queer-related articles have compared these closet case days here in 2019 to the early 1970s as far as how it feels to them. I have to agree with them and have said the same. It wasn’t that long ago that the conservative merchants and (wealthier) gay guys in San Francisco’s Castro — who had become quite the prudish conservatives — were shouting at us some anti-gay brainwashing slogan they had heard someone else say which was: “Gay people can live anywhere. Gay is now mainstream. There is no longer a need for Gay Meccas.” Oh yes, I remember hearing that. I don’t hear it anymore, in fact, I don’t hear anything anymore. Some of us called bull shit on that and we knew what they were up to, what their agenda was. Because shortly after, the conservatives merchants and politicians began their agenda of sanitising The Castro for the wealthier breeder$ who were moving in and taking over and who wanted the sex stores to sanitise their store front windows so that these newly-arrived conservative prudes wouldn’t have to see dick or ass pics on video covers in the sex store windows. Also around the same time, the conservatives were telling us all that “it’s time for the gay community to mature.” Translation: Become conservatives like us. And that’s exactly what we saw here in lockstep with queers doing their best to emulate the breeders. Some of the conservative trash started whining about the nudity in videos being shown in some of the queer bars! They wanted that stopped too so their prudish eyes didn’t have to see an image of a dick or ass shot. “What about the children” they screamed. Oddly, they’re only concerned about “the children” when the topic of queer sex comes up. Ah yes, the conservative prudes (including queers) with their gay shame and body image issues. The major pro-Establishment and conservative gay rag went so far as to publish a letter saying that it was not the right time to be out of the closet. (roll eyes). You might think I’m talking about a publication in Wichita Kansas, but no, I’m talking about a publication in San Francisco that published that rubbish. No, it’s never the right time to be out is it? That’s what has been said over the decades in opposition to human rights. It’s never the right time according to these bigoted and prejudiced trash. Historically, since throughout The Gay Mecca decades The Castro has had a history of some public nudity. The conservatives prudes — including queers — wanted the few naked guys out of the neighbourhood. “Get out of here!” was their attitude. I watched out queer boys bullied the naked guys. These queer boys seem to have forgotten how it felt when they were bullied by bigots in their past. Of course, these breeder a$$holes could have moved to any place in The City/San Francisco, but they chose to deliberately move to The Castro so they would change it to the way they wanted it: From a Gay Mecca to (what it has become) a Breeder Mecca with fleets of black baby strollers with mothers wearing mostly Millennial all-black or black and grey clothing. That was the beginning of the end of The Gay Mecca Castro. The reality is that gay people cannot live anywhere even in the closet if someone suspects one is queer. And when you see a breeder guy walking hand-in-hand with a female through Harvey Milk Plaza in The Castro and he’s wearing a “FUCK YOU, HOMO!” shirt — as I saw recently — that tells one that one is not safe in today’s Castro. Being gay is not “mainstream.” If that were true, we would see images of gay male couples everywhere we look in advertising just as we see images of “him and her” breeder couples everywhere we look shoved in our faces, making out and holding hands. There is still a need for gay areas of cities, otherwise one sees what has happened to The Castro where some gay guys in order to “fit in with the breeders” start pretending to be straight, they start dating females, they get married to females and pumping out babies thinking that by doing so makes them “straight and normal” now. Mi amigo/My friend has seen many examples of this at his gym. Guys who were at the “gay gym” for years and hung out and hung around the other gay guys have been coming down to this other gym and talking loudly about their girlfriend and how they’re trying to get pregnant or already are, and being Mr Baseball Cap Jock. I guess they think this is something new and exciting — some new mind-fuck fad? — when in reality gay guys have been marrying females for generations to stay in the closet, pretending to be straight and had kids. There’s nothing new about any of this. This is just a repeat of that sad saga and society’s breeder brainwashing. So these gay guys who are now pretending to be straight worked decades in the Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement in order to ultimately marry females and have kids? Insanity. They could have done that years ago without getting involved in the Movement. Our Movement as gay guys was not about marrying females and pumping out babies. Because the Castro is no longer a Gay Mecca, what we see having happened is gay guys caving into peer pressure and family pressure to follow “The Family Script” from their bigoted and prejudiced anti-gay families. And everywhere I look in advertisement I see images of “him and her.” On the odd occasion, I see images of him and her as well as “her and her” because lesbians are considered “acceptable” to the breeders. Gay guys are not considered acceptable, and NEVER do I see an image of a gay male couple (“him and him”) in mainstream advertising. I repeat: Images of gay male couples are never shown in mainstream advertising and that’s, in part, because gay male couples are not considered equals to lesbians. Lesbians can be seen dancing together in an ad because (as the thinking goes) “that’s what girls do.” When two guys dance together that’s considered, “abnormal and immoral” and they’re called “faggots.” I was researching a product I was thinking about buying and they showed images of a breeder wedding reception. All breeder couples were shown and two lesbian couples dancing or I think they were supposed to be. Two groups of women dancing with each other. No gay male couples were shown and you’re not about to see that in mainstream advertising. So there is no truth in the lies that the prudish conservatives have put out that “gay is now mainstream” and “gay people can live anywhere.” That is propaganda; bull shit. Chau. (Related: Sexual Freedom and Revolution and
The Naked Guys, also here and here).
The headline I read was “Gay Marriage becomes legal in Taiwan; first Asian country to legalise same sex unions.” I would have said “same-gender unions.” I’m surprised it didn’t say “LGBTQQICAPF2K+” marriage becomes legal in Taiwan.” So if they can say “gay marriage,” why can’t they say “gay” everything else and stop using that silly revisionist history “LGBT(Q)” shit? I’ve never been able to find out what organisations and the idiots who work there got the entire world to start using this “LGBT” nonsense en masse. “LGBT” does not represent me. Whoever it was, did a thorough job. Because everywhere I look I see absolute conformist behaviour to that. It’s as if people copy and paste it. The thing is: I thought queers desperately wanted to be identical to the breeders with marriage and children and the “Amurkan Dream” house and 2 car garage, picket fence and swimming pool and room for a pony, no? Breeders don’t have any silly acronyms/letters. So why do queers? I guess that’s something that those “LGBT” conformist assholes didn’t think of. This is one of my pet peeves obviously, and I suspect it will be “LGBT” for the rest of our lifetime because this amount of intense conformist brainwashing of the entire world is not easy to change back to using the words queer or gay. But everywhere I look no matter where it is around the world, there it is: “LGBT.” But good for them in Taiwan, although I’m not hot on marriage of any kind. That’s because marriage is a traditional conservative institution. Why would queers want anything to do with that when during our Movement we fought against traditional conservative institutions. We were the opposite. We were proudly radical. Yeah well that’s all gone today. Then they wanted to be part of the US Military Industrial Complex Killing Machine and to go kill other queers, although they probably never thought that one out before they joined since the people they would be shooting dead will not necessarily be breeders since there are queers all over the world in areas where the US Empire wants to steal their natural resources for Empire building and world domination. The Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement was pro-peace and anti-military, anti-war. So queers have done a complete reversal of who and what they were. Ultimate Conformity with the conservative breeders is what it’s all about now. But queers should have the same rights as the breeders. Now, I hope they’ve not ordered queers in Taiwan to “assimilate with the breeders” because we’ve seen what that has done in the US. It has completely backfired everywhere I look. Queers have gone back in the closet to “blend in” with the straights, queer boys are making out with females regularly now (I just saw an instance of that in the store I just shopped in) to “assimilate” as they call it with the straights by constantly using language such as “discreet” and “down low” and “straight-acting” and “straight-looking.” Heteronormative bull shit. Gay guys have married females in droves from what I’ve read. Mass insanity. If they were going to marry females in the end, why did they work decades for the Movement? Duh. Don’t try to figure that out. Loco./Crazy. Mi amigo/My friend and I just got back from shopping and in the store we were in there were two queer couples, which is unusual to see these days in San Francisco. Neither of them would give us the time a day. Neither of them would even look at us when we walked by them. They were snots. It’s one of the many reasons why I say the so-called “gay community” is dead because there is absolutely no feel or sense of community at all today. You can’t even get other queer boys to glance at you. Mi amigo mentioned them to me and I said, “Oh those snots.” He said, “Oh they were snotty to you too?” On another topic, in France, in 2018, a record number of physical attacks against queers were reported. 231 reported attacks occurred throughout France. There was an International Anti-Homophobia Day on 17 May 2019. It said that “LGBTQ Communities under threat worldwide.” There we go again. Why didn’t it say, “(Dead) Gay Community under threat worldwide.” If they can say “gay marriage” why can’t they say “gay community” instead of “LGBTQRSTUVWSXYZ#@#$+++++ community.” Although as I have pointed out, what used to be the the so-called “gay community” is completely dead. Or at least it is from all I see, especially here in San Francisco, the new Breeder Mecca. Related: Lea DeLaria: The LGBTQIA+ acronym is divisive). That’s the name of the game today: Divide, divide, divide to get us all to hate each other. Chau.
If the guy in this image isn’t a gay boy, then I’m not either! Why is it that so many of the guys I see today walking around San Francisco’s Castro and Upper Market holding hands with a female look similar to this (gay) guy, or guys who say they’ve got a girlfriend, wife or their new wife-to-be look queer to me? Like the guy in this image. The caption of this online was “Wife reads out husband’s affair texts and not the vows at their wedding.” I didn’t take the bait by clicking on this to read about his affair texts. Maybe the texts were his chat with other queer guys, I don’t know. But so often these days, guys who are with females in a relationship look gay to me. I see them all the time; they’re in their 20s-30s and walking with some ditzy female hand-in-hand. I watched a video awhile back where two queer boys were asking: What are straight guys doing in gay bars? And you go to approach the guy to show interest and the guy says, “Oh I’m straight.” Then WTF are you doing in a gay bar? All the straight bars in town aren’t closed. They also asked: Why are so many straight guys “trying to look gay?” I’d like to add to that: And why are so many queer guys trying to look straight? I guess it can be written off as “The Century of Insanity.” And these bitches they’re with who are hanging all over them are so desperate and needy for some guy to give them a attention. So when a closet case gay guy wastes years of his life pretending to be straight and pumping out kids, the bitch he’s married to is more than happy to accommodate the closet case because at least he’s giving her the attention she craves. In some cases, she knows he’s gay and just going through the motions. And just from what we can see of the guy standing next to the guy in the picture to the right, he’s queer too. I showed this image to mi amigo/my friend and he said, “I was going to ask: Who is that gay guy, and the one next to him?” So it’s not just me.
Well, considering the Gay Rights Movement is now dead by all indications and is even considered passé by most — “been there, done that, yawn” — which seems to be the attitude of most queers by all other indications, and the Breeder Movement is very much alive and shoved in our faces 24/7, 365 days a year for centuries, I guess that answers that question. What has become Corporate Pride, Inc. is one weekend, one Sunday a year. Then it’s back to in the closet the rest of the year for most queers with their “discreet, on the down-low, behind-closed-doors, nobody needs to know, not-out, straight-looking/acting” closeted language in sex profiles. All of that language is the opposite of “Out and Proud” that one may have heard on Corporate Pride, Inc. Sunday. I don’t know why I thought about this: Maybe it’s because I lived through the Gay Mecca decades in San Francisco, which was a drastically different time than here in 2019. For some reason, I had mistakenly thought back then that because of the Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement and some accomplishments at that time that all future gay or queer guys would come out of the closet when they matured to an age to do so. Man was I wrong. Here in 2019, with few exceptions I see the opposite. It doesn’t matter where I look (including television), I see (what looks like to me) gay guys walking around holding hands with females as if they are dating or a couple. By comparison seeing two guys holding hands in today’s San Francisco is extremely rare. The vibe the guy gives off to me is that he’s gay but in the closet and with a female. That saga has been played out for generations. Then I realise that Breeder Brainwashing — everyone must be straight in order to be considered “normal” — is constantly 24/7 rammed in our faces no matter where we look. All ads I see show “him and her” regardless of their age. The heteronormative mind-fuck of Breeder Brainwashing is like a cancer, and because of this, it explains why I’m seeing what I’m seeing: Gay guys with females pretending to be a straight couple. When I see that, it feels like we didn’t accomplish a damn thing! Our now-dead Gay and Lesbian Rights Movement didn’t stand a chance in the big scheme of things. Today’s queers have removed any queer symbols from their person to let other queers know without a doubt that they’re queer. That happened — from what I can tell — after the order was given by the corporatists among us to “assimilate with the straights” following gay marriage becoming legal and queers being allowed (except for trans) to be supposedly open in the US Military Industrial Complex Killing Machine so that queers can go out and kill other queers around the world. When a queer person shoots someone “in the line of duty,” that person s/he just killed or injured may have not been a breeder. The guy may have been queer, but I suspect most queers in the US Military never think of this. Today, it’s the opposite of the way it used to be where queers wanted nothing to do with war, militarism, US Empire-building and US world domination or the US flag. During our movement, queers were a pro-peace and anti-war/anti-military movement. Then, they call this new corporatist mind-fuck of fake-patriotism, flag-waving, marriage and military “Equality.” Both marriage and military are conservative institutions. Our movement opposed conservatism and conservative institutions. The conservative corporatist basura among us hijacked and ruined our movement in the name of “assimilating with the straights.” In the big scheme of things, our movement was a “flash in the pan” because Breeder Brainwashing lives on. Our movement doesn’t. Our movement is dead by all indications. Chau.
Gay guys like masculine guys and testosterone, but all back in the closet
Something occurred to me the other day. In general, gay guys are attracted to other masculine gay guys. I think it’s safe to say that most gay guys are not attracted to naturally fem guys. The fem guys must be having a hard time of it these days with all the “NO FEMS” language in gay guy’s online sex profiles. Because gay guys are attracted to other masculine guys including those who describe themselves as “a jock,” one wonders why some gay guys have fallen for the heteronormative bull shit of “I’m bi” — for those who are not genuinely bi — or “I’m str8″ or “I’m going str8.” Or is it all just a lie? I think so. I remember when CL personals were around. From my searches, the overwhelming majority of guys in the Bay Area and elsewhere in the men-seeking-men category claimed to be bi. That meant that the majority of the so-called “gay community” (which is now dead) had somehow, miraculously changed their sexual orientation to having an interest in women. Does anyone believe that? I don’t. What most of these guys were doing was copying each other’s ads and labeling themselves as “bi” to fit in and to appear masculine, because they had fallen for the lie/stereotype that “gay guys aren’t masculine.” I contacted many of these self-described bi guys. They were gay. They were not bi, but I never called them on it. Whenever I deliberately brought up the topic of sex with women, they had no interest in women. Talk about pussy and tits? No interest. They only wanted to talk about sex with guys. I felt like saying to the guy: But I thought you were bi? Liar. Whenever I brought up women with them, they disappeared because they had no interest in women. They were just saying they were “bi” to try to come off as Mr Jock, Mr Macho. And why would they be bi to begin with? They’re into masculine. They’re into testosterone. They’re not into estrogen. This reminds me of what I read about many of the guys in Russia who don’t eat pussy because they don’t want to ingest estrogen because they consider that “gay” behaviour. When you think about it, why would any guy — straight, gay or bi — want to ingest estrogen to make him more feminine? Yet “straight” guys do that all the time when they eat pussy, the ones who do eat pussy. Some straight guys are repulsed by the idea of eating pussy because of the stench and all that mucous/slime that comes out of pussy. When a guy is eating pussy, he’s eating estrogen. Again, that’s why many/some of the guys in Russia don’t eat pussy. Are the pussy-hounds trying to “turn themselves queer” by ingesting estrogen from pussy? (Tongue in cheek). Mi amigo/My friend went shopping yesterday. He came back and told me about it. He checked out the guys in the store who he said were pretending to be straight but kept looking at him out of the corner of their eye — the way closet cases did in the 1940-50s — so no one would catch them looking at another guy. When they caught him looking at them, they quickly jerked and looked away, just like in the 1940s-50s. We’ve made so much fucking progress!! “A guy can’t look at another guy in San Francisco in 2019.” No, I’m not talking about Topeka Kansas, which you might think. I’m talking about San Francisco where this happened. And this happened many times he said. There was one queer couple in the store touching each other affectionally. He said that no one was wearing any queer symbols to give any indication that they were queer the way it was during our movement and when the so-called “queer community” was alive. As he said: Today it feels just like you’ve written about: All back in the fucking closet. That’s the way it felt in that store I was in. Such a different, depressing time. Yes, in many ways it feels like we’re back before the movement ever began. And during the movement, I would not have predicted that years later I would be writing this about the dead so-called queer community. I would have said, “Oh you’re loco/crazy. It’s not going to go back to that.” Well it has, just as other things are going back to the way they were decades ago. Chau.
I never saw this in San Francisco in the Old City (of the Gay Mecca). I don’t remember ever seeing a breeder couple making out in front of me or anywhere. That just didn’t happen that I remember. Well, that was then. There does seem like there’s been a major concerted effort to kick out the queers and move breeders into San Francisco’s Upper Market and Castro. Towards the end of the Gay Mecca years we heard breeders complaining about “the gays are so in our face with their sexuality.” Well, it seems that “the gays” (as they call us) aren’t supposed to make out in public but it’s perfectly fine for the breeders to do so. Hypocrites. The most recent example: I went on my bike ride the other evening. I had to avoid a street I usually take because ahead of me I saw yet another “him and her” make-out session blocking the street. Yes, they were out in the street making out. I didn’t feel like dealing with them. As other people I’ve talked with have said: “I just don’t see breeders going out of their way to make out in any other area of San Francisco or the Bay Area except in Upper Market and Castro (the former Gay Mecca areas). WTF is that about? I think it’s intended to show that they have taken over and this is now their territory so: “You faggots fuck off and get the fuck out of here, understand?” I wouldn’t at all be surprised if that is their not-so-covert message to us. And these breeder couples are exhibitionist type who act oblivious that anyone else is around. In this instance it was a guy on a motorcycle with a female standing next to him and they were sucking face, even though where they were a vehicle could have hit them. I guess that wasn’t their concern. Idiots. We are never bombarded with images of him and her, are we? [sarcasm intended]. This scene I’ve described was being video recorded. As I rode back by them to go home, the camerawoman looked at the playback and I heard her gush, “So cute, so cute.” (Roll eyes, sigh). Oh yes, as if the world has never seen a “him and her” couple make out before. There was a time in this City where one would have seen “him and him” in this scene and not “him and her,” but not anymore. Breeder brainwashing is being heavily promoted in San Francisco these days. I think that’s why it feels and seems like most queers here are back in the closet today. Because they feel like a minority once again — and there’s no feel or sense of “community” at all now; it feels cold and lobotomised as if no one gives a fuck about anything like they used to! — in a sea of obnoxious “in your face” breeders. We queers felt like we were the majority during the Gay Mecca decades. But I’m sure this video will be a hot seller because, again, no one has ever seen seen a guy and a female make out before….anywhere, have they? [sarcasm intended]. Ugh. Chau.
Clueless about The New San Francisco
A reader who reads my site and also a certain conservative socialist site asked me to respond to this comment that they read on the other site:
Quote: I live in San Francisco, a city that prides itself on it’s so-called “progressivism” and yet all of the so-called progressives support the Democratic Party and a great many of them believe that Sanders is actually revolutionary in some way. The City is hip-deep in pseudo left identity politics. Support for Julian Assange and Chelsea Manning (a trans woman, whom you would think would garner massive support in the LGBTQ community) is practically nonexistent, apart from a hand full of us who are continually vilified or accused of being Trump supporters if we don’t go along with this charade. End Quote
My response: There’s not much to comment on there. From having read that site in the past, I “know” of the person who wrote the comment whose name was attached to the comment (I removed the commenter’s name from the comment). She’s in her early 70s and is one of the people on that site that defends sexism and chauvinism and any positions that they take. She’s one of their disciples. She’s as partisan-brainwashed as any “Democrat” or Republican of the two corporate parties in the US. Yes, she claims to live in San Francisco, but must not get out of her apartment much based on what she wrote. The City of San Francisco that she describes above is not the New City. She’s writing about the Old City as if she’s stuck in the past. Is this woman not aware that this City has shifted to the right in recent years? I’m not aware that the New Conservative San Francisco prides itself on being “progressive” anything these days. A friend of mine who has lived here longer than myself recently said, “San Francisco is quite conservative today; the things we did during the Gay Mecca days we couldn’t get away with today.” True. From what I can tell, the words “liberal” and “progressive” are now “dirty-words” here. I never hear either of them spoken. Just like the words “vegetarian” and “vegan” are now “dirty-words” in this New San Francisco where residents shout out, “More meat, more meat.” That doesn’t sound at all “progressive” or “liberal.” Some restaurants have removed their token vegetarian options because of lack of interest. The New San Francisco prides itself on being the Tech Capital and a playground for the super-wealthy. Period. It is true there are “identity politics” here but that’s true anywhere and mainly based in the corrupt “Democratic” Party. As for Manning and the now-dead so-called “queer community” and support for Manning being “practically nonexistent,” that’s because the “queer community” here is “practically nonexistent.” Where has this woman been not to know that? Has she not seen that the City has been taken over by Millennial breeders? Does she never step foot in The Castro? Although I thought that’s where she lived. Also, the trans “community” — which includes Manning — has never been that accepted as part of the “queer community.” Manning was abandoned by the “queer community” when she was in prison. Chelsea Manning has never enjoyed the support of the so-called “queer community.” Does this ignorant woman not know that? Some trans individuals have wondered when the “T” would disappear from that silly “LGBT” acronym shit. Most of the now-dead “queer community” want nothing to do with the “trans community.” They are looked down on, and some queers have suggested that trans be a separate group and not part of our queer group. (I don’t see that happening any time soon). Does this woman not know that some years ago one of those elitist corporatist queer organisations at the national level (that Human Rights Campaign group) threw the trans community under the bus which to this day pisses off many trans individuals? So, this woman speaks from a position of her willful-ignorance, which is rather typical at least among the commenters on that site. If one tried to correct all the ignorance expressed in the comments, it would be a full-time job. Gracias for your e-mail and thanks for reading. Chau.
Preface to “I woke up with a dick in my mouth:”
Things have really changed around here in San Francisco’s Castro (the former Gay Mecca) since I wrote this article some years ago. (Related: San Francisco is unrecognisable to former residents who come back to visit). Is anyone talking about waking up with a dick in their mouth anywhere in The Castro these days? Are you kidding? No, we never hear that anymore, although I’m pretty much keeping this article in its original dated form. We never hear “I woke up with a dick in my mouth” in conservative and sanitised San Francisco. (I’ll update this a bit: Here in 2019, I can’t remember the last time I heard the words “gay” or “queer” spoken in the The Castro). This City has done a 180 with tech gentrification. This City is now a Baby Factory. If Harvey Milk were alive and came back to visit The Castro, he would likely say, “What the fuck have you done to it gay guys? Why did you allow this to happen, and even encourage it? Why did you become conservatives why calling yourselves Democrats?” Yes, The Castro has been so sanitised, Disneyfied and stripped of what it once was with the help of the now-conservative GLBTQ so-called “community” — what I mean by that is that there’s no sense or feel of “community” here now at all — along with the conservative Castro merchants, most of whom deserve to go out of business frankly. It’s appalling what they’ve done. They have ruined The Castro. The Castro is no longer even a museum piece of its former self. They can saturate The Castro with Rainbow Flags but that doesn’t make it a gay area.
Mi amigo/My friend changed gyms for a couple of reasons: He was going to what was known as the gay gym and he left there because of a large fee hike and because it was a very unfriendly/snooty gym and becoming more and more “straight.” And the gay guys there were trying to be more and more heteronormative and acting like tough-guy jocks. Obnoxious. His new gym has some Queer guys in it but as he tells me, “Nobody looks at anybody. They’re all phone tech zombies. And the guys I always thought were gay and came down here from the gay gym I’ve heard some of them talking about getting married to a female trying to pretend to be “straight” to fit in with the invading “straights” population. Pretty fucked up. One of the reasons for gay areas in major cities was to give gay guys a safe place where they wouldn’t need to feel like this and could be open and honest about who they are as a Queer person. But that becomes less and less the case when the area becomes more and more “straight” with some anti-gay “straights” moving in (Related: His shirt said, “Fuck you, homo.” (San Francisco’s Castro)). Mi amigo is hearing more and more of that, guys he’s always thought were gay talking about marrying a female. Script writers couldn’t make this shit up! That story has repeated itself thousands of times over generations with gay guys marrying females, squeezing out babies and then comes the: “Honey, I’m gay and always have been. I’ve been lying all this time about my sexuality. I’m moving in with my new boyfriend. Meet you in court over the house and kids” with many people’s lives ruined. Mi amigo is also seeing some guys he thought were gay all these years making out with females on Market Street and in the gym, again, trying to be heteronormative to be like the obnoxious in-your-face him-tall/her-short, mandatory hand-holding breeders
who are taking over who have taken over. As of this writing, he’s seeing less of that from the past because he thinks the gym has lost about 3/4 of their membership as people have stopped taking care of themselves and stopped going to the gym. Here in the US, “fat and lazy” is in, including here in San Francisco. The gym thing was just a long time fad here. It would appear that many gay guys are going back in the closet even in San Francisco and elsewhere, running from the word “gay” and calling themselves “WM” (white male) and at some point the now-dead Gay Rights’ Movement will have to start all over again. Sad really.
Now for the article you came here for: Have you ever woken up with a dick in your mouth? I can’t say that I have. I think it would be rather startling, don’t you? I mean you wake up—or you’re trying to—and in this fog of waking up you slowly realise that you have—what feels like—something thick and with human skin in your mouth and your tongue is having trouble moving about and you don’t want to bite down because you don’t know what’s in your mouth.
I was talking with mi amigo yesterday and over the years one of the most common things (lies?) he’s heard Queer guys say at his gym has been the proverbial, “I woke up with a dick in my mouth.” (Yeah, sure you did, muchacho).
The “dick in the mouth” story is told after Queer boys in San Francisco have been to one of their many non-stop parties (parTying is their occupation and addiction) where they get drunk and don’t remember any of it. Well what’s the point of that? But that’s what much of the gay populace has become, which is why I no longer relate to much of the so-called “gay community” at all. (Well, there’s really no “community” or “community” feel at all anymore). The so-called “gay community” has become rather pathetic. Other than parTying, getting drunk and being bent over squinting at the biggest mind controlling device there is (also known as the smartphone 24/7 with their intense addiction to that, they don’t seem to have much of a life at all. As another Queer blogger I know says: It’s rather pathetic what my fellow Queers have become. Yes it is. Mi amigo has heard this “dick in the mouth” story countless times. He heard it again last weekend at his gym, which is why I’m writing about it. He told me he went into the gym and looked around and every guy he saw in there had his head down fucking with their mind-controlling device/stupidphones. Everyone of them. Clearly, they were working out their thumbs, but not much else. Then he went over to another part of the gym (a few guys were over there and not glued to their phone) and he overheard this guy tell another guy that his dick was in the other guy’s mouth when he woke up and the other guy’s dick was in his mouth. Does anybody believe that? I suppose it’s possible, but really! Then the guy proceeded to tell the guy he was telling the story to/lying to about how drunk he got and they both let out this loud, obnoxious laugh as if getting drunk and waking up with a dick in your mouth—and supposedly not remembering any of it—was the funniest thing they had ever heard. Even though as I said, this “dick in the mouth” story has been repeated probably thousands of times by guys in this same gym. These are supposed adults I’m talking about, not adolescents. I thought all that bragging about getting drunk and not remembering any of it ended after the teenage years, no?
A personal note to “dick in the mouth” guys: Just like internet trolls, you need new material desperately, muchachos. That dick in the mouth story has more than run its course. It’s predictable and at this point unbelievable, because it supposedly happens too often. So let me see …Oh I know, you could say that you woke up with the other guy’s fist up your ass and your fist up his ass. How’s that? You could replace your dick in the mouth story with that story. That happens all the time too, doesn’t it?! At least that would add variety to your stale and monotonous, “I woke up with…” repertoire. So give that a try.
Update here in 2019: We don’t hear any of that around here anymore so even though it’s written in present tense, it’s really past tense. In fact, the only sexual talk that is heard around here anymore is about breeder sex. Such as how some jock bro — including some guy mi amigo always thought was gay from the “gay gym” — is trying to get his girl or his wife pregnant. Mi amigo hears that breeder shit at his new gym. Amazing how a place can change so drastically from what it used to be.
Then there’s pussy. The way some heteronormative guys are going on about and marketing pussy, you would think that pussy is some new creation, some new invention like the latest and greatest phone that everyone must have. The Castro has become a Breeder Mecca, no longer a Gay Mecca.
The Rainbow Flag is now “too gay?”
[My Editorial: Apparently the Rainbow Flag is now "too gay" or seen as such since the supposedly gay (or is it now straight?) obnoxious sports bar on Market Street in San Francisco only flies the Rainbow Flag on Corporate Pride weekend (Friday, Saturday and Sunday) to give the impression to unknowing tourists that the bar is "pro-gay." And they don't want to turn off the anti-gay straights/potential customers by flying a Rainbow Flag 365 days a year. So their Rainbow Flags go back in the closet -- where the male owner is? -- the following Monday after Corporate Pride and they stay there the rest of the year until the next Corporate Pride weekend. Someone who has been to that bar described the gay clientele there as "Closet Cases Anonymous." And the male owner of that bar comes off as quite the closet case, although he said in an interview, "I identify as gay." (roll eyes) Identify? Identify? That sounds so corporate. It is too much trouble for you to say, "I'm gay" and cut out all that "identify" bull shit that the gay sheeple are using these days. You're either gay or you're not. That's the way it usually works. What the fuck is there to "identify" with?]
The official acronym is now: LGBTQQICAPF2K+ (If that isn’t the most ridiculous looking thing I’ve seen in some time).